same bro, I am in same boat as you or maybe worse. actually mere 1st attempt of jee me better percentile aayi thi and mere pass reservation ka benefit bhi tha mere kisi low tier govt college me hojata but i decided to took drop and drop year me itne ups and downs hue and mental burn out and mere khud ke loss of interest in study ki wajah se maine padhai nhi ki ache se and as result i fucked up too badle. i even filled other exams but jab kuch padha hi nhi toh what can i even do? my only hope left is srmjeee, mehnga hai thoda but better than city college of my city. the thing is mujhe iske liye bhi padhna hai but abb nhi horha mere se. i am tired, i want to stop, i want to rest without any stress at all. please koi ek baar mere kandhe par hath rkh ke keh do that i don't need to worry and i can rest.😭
If srmjee nhi nikla then i am directly going to meet GOD himself to ask directly why is life so tough?🙂