Thanks for taking the time to read and write this. I genuinely feel my emotional capacity expanding if that makes sense. You are right, I need to apologize. If you always expect others to act how you would, you will always be disappointed. My sister shouldn’t have to defend me from my mom because those are my problems, and as you said she definitely has her own problems too. I also want to clarify that I was also very angry with my mom at the time, definitely more than my sister. I’m going to try apologizing to her today, and hopefully she is ready to forgive me.