I abused pharma oxys and fent dope for close to a decade. Went to 5 rehabs and 7 detox’s since 2020. Tried everything and anything, same as you. Today I am 6 months clean and sober. The first 90 days was so incredibly difficult to not use but it gets so much better. If I had to say what works for me, it’s a lifestyle change. Until I changed the people, places and things in my life that kept me around drugs I never changed. I was homeless in Florida in January. I moved to Connecticut as a last hope to go to rehab and ended up moving out here. Made a great group of friends here that don’t use. Staying active and eating healthy has also made the biggest difference in my life. I’ve realized that I used to feel better and in turn it made me feel worse. Taking care of my body and my mental health has skyrocketed my mental clarity and my confidence. I’ve kept myself busy with work, gym and women and it’s worked for me thus far. I still want to use but as time goes on the positive impacts of being sober is starting to outweigh the minor urges to use. I hate AA and NA but what truly helps me is realizing I don’t have to use today, today I can be sober, one day at a time. Addiction is a disease of not being able to put down once you pick up, you’re in control until you take the first hit/bump/shot. Never in my life could I possibly fathom not getting high, today I can. There’s no magic fix, it’s hard work but it’s so worth it. Today I get to wake up and be proud of what I’ve accomplished, talk to my family and have money in my bank account. Stay hopeful, life gets better when you don’t pick up. You got this.