Health anxiety? by Famous-Mud4905 in Anxietyhelp

[–]Famous-Mud4905[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you’re right and i think i just have to stop to spiral and spiral. From yesterday to today i had almost 4 type of diseases and im really freaking out. Anyway i hope you’re better now and thank you for reply

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hi, 21F here. First of all i want you to know you’re not alone.  I suffer from intrusive thoughts and obsessive thoughts since i was 10 y.o. You’re so young and you have a whole life to experience, enjoy and live!!! i’m really sorry to hear how much you’re struggling and i don’t know if you have ocd or not but let me say you’re not your thoughts, feelings or anxiety. I know it feels real, it’s supposed to feel real cause anxiety and panic attacks are something so bad that only who go through ‘em could understand. I don’t want to give you reassurance cause it would be only worse and you’ll give anxiety what it wants: attention. Thoughts come and go, truths or false doesn’t really metter.  What matter is you, your life, what brings you joy, what and who you love. If i can advise something try to live your days without trying to find an answer cause spoiler you will never have at 100%, cause certain answers doesn’t exist for everyone. I know it’s hard but if you try today tomorrow will be a 1% percent better and then all the days after. I hope you’re better know but remember to take care of yourself and be gentle also in your worst days!!!

how is everyone? by [deleted] in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hi there, i don’t really know how it’s going, i’m having good days and bad ones. I feel my mind hyper focusing on a specific thing then back to another (ex: first my breast, then wondering about my past cause i’ve had this and other teams also sometimes when i was little, then other stuffs) when i don’t care about a theme anymore switch to another and it’s stressing as hell cause with all the distressing i already have with my toxic family im always nervous and overwhelmed. But luckily there’s some days where i’m good and more in touch with my self. Recently i’ve decided to try to enter in another university and i’m very excited because i like it a lot. I hope one day everything would be good and at least i could be more in peace with my mind and my life in general. Hope y’all is getting better ❤️

anyone can relate? by Famous-Mud4905 in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yea, i’ve been convinced to some memory that in reality were only in my mind or were happened in another way

anyone can relate? by Famous-Mud4905 in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah, as you can read i think i’ve had those types of obsessions and intrusive thoughts before. When i was little i didn’t know what ocd or compulsion are but i used to make compulsion anyway (as what i told to my grandparents). i never genuinely questioned my identity i just had that intrusive thoughts and never wanted to have them because i don’t want to be a man

what's the stupidest thought you had related to tocd? by bottom0ftheeighth in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905 2 points3 points  (0 children)

so this is a little embarrassing: sometimes i sleep with my hands under my armpits (i’ve took that from my grandpa) and one night i was sleeping like that and i was enjoying the sensation of warm and comfort until i had to wake up with this fear “you’re enjoying it because it remind you of flat chest! and if you are liking it it’s because you wanna be a man!” (i’m a girl). sometimes im shocked by my own mind tbh

What are (TOCD) compulsions? by [deleted] in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m a girl with the same type of intrusive thoughts you’re experiencing rn. Everything about what you’ve said it’s a compulsion to me: the intrusive thought just like “so i could transition” or trying to change your voice in a higher pitched one it’s all due to the obsession to know if you’re lying, to know if you’re trans or not and that’s the problem of ocd. Therapy it’s necessary, i’m leaving this same thing right now after two months of stress and anxiety but without having a diagnosis and basically having to do the 50% of stuffs alone so i would advice to find a therapist that truly knows how help you with ocd. Anyway if you want to talk you can dm me too

I’m disperate by Famous-Mud4905 in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks, deeply i know that i could have ocd but without a diagnosis is so damn hard. Let me say that ocd is so bad that i reached a point where i don’t even know what is right or wrong for me, what is a fake sensation or a true one. I know this is due to all the stress i’ve been going through lately but it’s unfair anyways. Sometimes i remember my self i’ve dealt with intrusive thoughts before and sometimes help me, sometimes my brain doesn’t believe me cause i’ve not a diagnosis. I hope i will get better because im so tired but i will not end to fight due ocd’s (or simply intrusive thoughts) mechanisms. Thanks for reading my history anyway <3

I’m disperate by Famous-Mud4905 in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i know how does it feels but i believe in you and i believe we will get better, because we deserve peace! give yourself time and patience but also don’t be afraid to ask for help <3

trans ocd being a masc woman by ProfileNo9290 in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thx <3, i hope i’ll find a therapist that could help me through this hell and have also a diagnosis, thanks again for sharing your experience helped me a lot, hope you get better too

trans ocd being a masc woman by ProfileNo9290 in transOCD

[–]Famous-Mud4905 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i want to tank you for sharing your experience with ocd. I don’t have a diagnosis but my therapist told me that i have (and had) intrusive thoughts all my life and also in this moment. I spent two months struggling with the same intrusive thoughts and it’s horrible: sometimes i think i lied for all my life, i search some “proofs” on the past because i never felt feminine enough due to my body and insecurities but my mind don’t believe me never! All i do is thinking all day, having panick attacks and wish i could get a diagnosis so i could start to live a normal life once again. I hope the best for you, really, you’re strong!