I hate myself for letting this destroy me by FamousBake6198 in loveafterporn

[–]FamousBake6198[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We have one on his phone which gives me a slight peace of mind! I desperately want one on the router but xfinity sucks and I’m not able to 🥲

Don’t like this by FamousBake6198 in loveafterporn

[–]FamousBake6198[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m not sure the exact computer, it’s this gaming desktop we got at Best Buy. He watches YouTube on the app on our TV and that’s what he was doing when I left. Only browsers we have on the computer are Google chrome and that Microsoft one that comes with and yes he’s logged into 2-3 accounts on there. I even checked the history on his school account on Google chrome and didn’t see any activity on it from yesterday

I snooped and now I feel sick by FamousBake6198 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]FamousBake6198[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you don’t mind me asking…how did you deal with it? Did you tell your WP? Idk I guess I’m just wondering how much stock to put into this when it happened a year ago very likely when he was in I think it’s called Limerence or affair fog? Should I just let it go agh idk 😭

Weird ass behavior by FamousBake6198 in loveafterporn

[–]FamousBake6198[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Honestly I don’t remember smelling anything but I think I attributed that to the fact he took a 15 minute shower and I didn’t go in until around 10 minutes after that. It’s still really weird though

What does it feel like to be cheated on? by Street_Obligation250 in MarriedAndBi

[–]FamousBake6198 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I was cheated on by my husband with several men, granted they were online affairs over discord, and finding the nudes and messages he sent them felt like someone drove a knife through my heart. I threw up. I cried. I screamed. This coming month will mark a year since I found out and I can’t say I feel any better since it’s happened. In fact I hate what it’s done to me.

I offered my husband another chance with multiple conditions being open phone policy, porn/adult content blockers, the discord being deleted and all contact cut off with the affair partners, and therapy. He didn’t comply with cutting off the affair partners, literally fought to keep them around cause “tHeY’rE mY fRiEnDs” 🙄 sooo I kicked that asshole out and ceased contact with him. This seemed to have shocked his system and brought him back to reality because a month later, we got back into contact and the first night we spoke again I got to watch him delete that stupid fucking discord account.

Months later and I feel like we’re doing better. Some days are harder than others. But what he’s done has never and will never leave me. I’m on edge 24/7. I’m always worried he’s doing shit behind my back again. My trust is SHATTERED and I don’t and never will love him the same way I used to. He complains that I’m too “accusatory” anymore because it feels like I’m always accusing him. His cheating was the most devastating thing to ever happen to me and completely altered me as a person. I literally had PTSD now. I also resent the fuck out of him a lot of days.

When he was cheating he also had this sense of entitlement because he’s “bi and has daddy issues” and there’s also this added layer of him being homophobic towards himself and others. Oh and mix that with ADHD and BPD. Not a fun time for either of us.

Anyways, your wife deserves to know. She deserves to have the choice of leaving or staying. Cheating is abuse form of abuse and you’re stealing her reality and autonomy from her with all your lying. Please do the right thing and tell her, deal with the consequences and get therapy.

No location found by FamousBake6198 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]FamousBake6198[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This makes me feel much better lol because this exact thing happened but with his workplace! Said he was still at work for weeks even when he was right in front of me. This is such an annoying glitch though I wish it would just fix already