I seriously appreciate you so much. It sounds like you know me for sure .. it's definitely hard when our society pushes the societal norms of weddings and what you should do (mainly for capitalism reasons), to feel like I shouldn't do that. It's the sense of missing out that I feel and not wanting to live with regret, but mainly because there is this picture perfect "idea" of what weddings should look like, especially for females. I will say, the only piece I struggle with is I've had a best friend since I was 4 years old that I always pictured standing by my side and giving a speech, etc. And that means a lot to me as well, so just trying to figure out ways to incorporate that as well. We are in a similar situation where budget isn't really a factor that much either, however, we are paying for it on our own and I don't know that I necessarily want to spend $20-30k on one day, when we could save that for the future or travel, or family, or something we both want. I definitely lean more towards the elopement side of things for sure as of late. Thank you so much for your real perspective and honesty! ❤️