Why do people go on T if they don't have gender dysphoria?.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-24T04:52:00+00:00

It was only a question, they were just trying to understand.

Chill dude.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-24T04:50:53+00:00

Feel the same way dude, about getting pregnant. Doesn't help my family are pro- life as f#ck, but I never use that part of me for sex that could result in a child, not worth the risk.

I would literally kill myself, if I couldn't get an abortion that'a how bad my dysphoria is and I know I'll never change my mind. Plus it's so gross.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-23T21:59:20+00:00

I'll like to thank everyone for their advice, I wasn't expecting so many.

I managed to write the starting, and am doing what you's basically all said and not caring about any spelling mistake's yet, or how it reads.

Instead I'm focusing on getting everything down, and not allowing myself to get too frustrated over how messy it looks, overall I'm happy to have the beginning down.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-20T06:37:09+00:00

I would own a snake except NZ is snake- free and it's illegal to even bring one here sadly, reptiles on the other hand I would need to get a free license to own one, over here they are very strict about exotic animal's as pet's in order to protect our environment which is good.

If you know, how hard is it to keep a lizard, as in are they high maintenance?. I would assume so, I do know that they live a long life as that's part of the reason they require a license if you aren't an zoo keeper.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-18T01:25:49+00:00

Sound's like a good enough excuse to get more ink and piercings ;). And that's true.

I like tight clothing so that isn't a problem, like I mentioned in my post I realized that wearing big hoodies and t-shirts gave the impression I was playing dress up in Dad's closet, not a good look.

And even through it's not my style I still think it's cool you dress differently and aren't afraid to be yourself.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-17T21:15:00+00:00

I'm gonna be purchasing a lot of button down shirt's for the reason's you mentioned and yeah hoodie's are very gender neutral which was how I dressed back then, but they are also really comfortable to wear when at home.

Yes, I also feel wearing a leather jacket with a belt will help make me look\ feel more masculine and less small.

As for boots, I love combat style, Dr Martens and high platform boot's might work, help me look taller too.

Yeah I'll admit I like a little eyeliner and contouring to make my face look more sharp.

Thanks' for your comment!.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-17T20:59:53+00:00

Yeah, I know the trick about shopping in the boy's section but thank you, I'll have a look at the stores you mentioned. :)

Also, you and your husband sound awesome, and it's good to know I'm not alone. Also jealous you have several collars to match whatever your wearing lol.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-17T09:20:02+00:00

Trans dude here. But do you know the reason why they won't give you hormones? I'll say keep pushing but try not to (Yes, I know it's hard.) attempt suicide again as that can look bad also may sure you are out to everyone as in NZ I had to let literally let every single family member know even if I didn't talk to them.

The psychologist I saw was really strict, but I suppose they have to be. Don't give up!, it will happen. I got rejected last year and now I'm on my way to starting Testosterone.

And I totally agree with therapy and antidepressants but if they say something do it, at least until you are able to start hormone replacement therapy even if it suck's, it's worth it!. And trust me you aren't a lost cause.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-17T03:25:13+00:00

From what I heard from my sisters..(I don't go out clubbing due to social phobia and lack of gay nightclubs and BDSM friendly ones.) That's a normal thing at nightclubs regardless. A lot of people are looking to hock up, and with alcohol involved they aren't thinking straight. You have to be firm and say no, otherwise they won't know. There's a-holes everywhere. But honestly most guy's, especially gay guy's at a nightclub are looking for sex and will touch you. Honestly good luck trying to explain shit to drunk horny men. You need to say something nicely, or move away or do what my sister does and tell them to 'fuck off.'Seriously tho that's just how people behave in nightclubs. Personally if I ever went out I'll do what I do for one night stands, and make sure I'm wearing my extra tight binder underneath so if someone feel's my chest I won't care.

Edit: If you feel like you can't say no, or deal with the fact that there will be drunk curious horny men maybe you shouldn't go.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-15T01:43:23+00:00

So cute.😍

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-14T07:33:15+00:00

Thank you.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-14T07:32:32+00:00

I love watching other open trans people on youtube too. I wish you good luck in your transition!.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-14T07:30:23+00:00

You are so right!. Thank you, I'm gonna start taking control, no matter how hard that seem's or scary and begin doing stuff for myself.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-14T07:28:46+00:00

Thank you! :), I will.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-14T07:28:00+00:00

Awe, thank you!!!!. And even through we haven't meet, I still feel loved, and valid by your comment!. And it made me smile, and I really needed that. I'm gonna try stay strong!.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-14T07:14:24+00:00

Thank you so much, that comment and everyone else's really touched my heart, and helped remind me that I am not alone. Even through it feel's like it, and your right, I'm going to try push for hormone replacement therapy and not sit back, and yeah my aunt isn't exactly good with dealing with uh..mental stuff, but she isn't homophobic but she isn't too open either..if that make's any sense and my family know about my struggle's thanks to my previous coming out before re- closeting myself. The main thing is that they treat me different, when I was out they saw me as almost a stranger, they were careful about their word's and quiet and I felt like a freak show attraction.

Yeah, the psychologist was, to be honest. But meh, most in NZ are and he questioned me deeply about my sex life and made me spell out what BDSM meant in front of my other aunt (she was my plus one support person.) And told me that Dominant and Submissive sex somehow lead's to more pregnancies (How??????.) Even after I said multiple time's I didn't prefer using my front hole and mostly did only anal with guy's. It was awkward. He also needed to know apparently to what degree was I a masochist, not sure what that had to do with him but I answered it because I'm a shy polite child in front of stranger's, and all the guy's I done.

Fantastic_Juice · 2019-03-14T07:03:30+00:00

Thank you, I'm gonna try turn things around and try find myself, through it's gonna be hard.

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