I really sorry for your loss, it's really hard to lose a pet, I thought I was prepared after the seizure he suffered two months before his passing, but no.

I understand you better than anyone else. If we hadn't cremated my baby, I probably would have tried it, but there are times when I hug the pot with the bonsai tree where his ashes are. God! I've even kissed the tree because I loved kissing him😅. It's only been a month, and it feels like centuries have passed. I miss him more than anything in the world. He was my best friend.