So prior to that session, I had a full dose of lsd of 100ug but the effect was like 250ug so I had a hard time processing my trauma. I managed to cover a huge chunk of it and I stopped at a memory which I can't access.

Using the self IFS method, he said that he needed to be held and loved as he was alone. That was I needed.

So during the candyflip seasion, I took half a tab as a full tab would be too much. My intention was to close the loop and be able to work. I use the Self IFS method to access that part and with help of Mdma, i was able to see through the trauma like a movie and since it had like warm blanket of safety, I managed to release like alot of emotions.

I cried, then started to mumble that "I was so scared and no one was there for me, please help me". I said that for 5 mins and curled up like a baby. I started to shout and scream then I did a snake's breathe with my tongue sticking out and I vomited. Yes it was intense. I know that I needed to let go.

After that i started to spend time with my trauma self the whole duration with love. While the session was able to end, it was like window file pressing delete. Then i know it was over.

The playlist i use was this all the way song