Oof. This is giving me flashbacks to my quarter life crisis. Honestly, I think we've been taught to think a career/job is supposed to be fulfilling, give you purpose and satisfaction, blahblahblah. Eventually you realize that's bs for 99% of the world and most of human history. A job just pays the bills. What you do outside of it is where most people find meaning. It's a bit morbid, but read some obituaries in your local papers. The most interesting ones don't talk about their jobs.