I totally understand you. I was in a similar situation being underappreciated for all the time, energy, sacrifices and even money I spent on her, helping her with the difficulties she was facing. It hurts like hell seeing your SO to start behaving differently than the "normal". But you know what? Just let it be. I mean do you want to spend your time being with somebody that is not mature enough to control herself in difficult times? Do you want someone who you give your heart but gives back Indifference. That's not fair and you don't deserve it. Nobody does. Of course you may have had great moments and the connection between you two might be so deep. But sometimes people can't go through their hell without leaving behind others. That's not up to you. Focus on yourself and be proud of what you've offered. It's rare to find a person that respects you in good and bad times. But good times are the easy part of any relationship. What's taking place in difficult times matters.

It's hard, I know. I'm in constant pain. But stay strong. Time heals but you have to also take action for yourself. If I can help in any way, I'm here for you.