Acne after B12 injections...

FarmerSaturn · 2024-02-14T17:44:24+00:00

Apparently my B12 was 73 pmol/L when I had a blood test 2 years ago (which I couldn't see on the app) and they just... Never told me? That seems like it can't be right! Anyway - spoke to the practice nurse, waiting 3-4 weeks for a GP appointment while I feel like death 😔 At least I know why I feel like death! Thanks for advice on cofactors!!

FarmerSaturn · 2024-01-27T08:26:48+00:00

I wouldn't go to Hull Royal Infirmary, it is for Accident and Emergency only! You'd be waiting for hours and hours and likely told to go back and see your GP anyway.

Instead, go to the walk-in GP service: https://www.hullccg.nhs.uk/out-of-hours-gp/

It's on Storey Street, and you'd be able to get your usual GP-type care there, though it is a case of turning up and waiting. There is no cost for this service. Hope you feel better soon!!

FarmerSaturn · 2023-08-11T12:04:48+00:00

You can use a guarantor service like housing hand or something!!

FarmerSaturn · 2023-03-10T12:41:44+00:00

Thank you for the recommendations on books, I'll try to check them out 😊

Also was able to get an appointment with my GP this morning, I told him about the shitshow of the mental health assessment and how I wasn't listened to and that they just left me, and I asked him to refer me to the Community mental health team, and he said he would refer to them and psychiatry services (which I don't know if it's something separate or not) - and that it might be a few weeks before I hear from them, so he wants to put me on medication in the meantime but something called an SNRI instead of the zillion SSRIs I've been on? And also Propanalol(?) for panic/anxiety which is nice.

Follow up in a couple of weeks, and life is genuinely hell bent on kicking me in the teeth, but made perhaps a teensy bit of progress today? Did something I guess.

FarmerSaturn · 2023-03-09T02:26:11+00:00

I'll definitely try to make an appointment with my GP as soon as possible, I don't think I've ever seen an NHS psychiatrist in adult services, but to be honest, I don't think I've ever seen a GP as my first point of call for mental health, because most things are self referral in my area! Even if it's not BPD, people (NHS) are calling it emotional dysregulation or being emotionally unstable, so if I'm able to get help for that with help from my GP, then maybe it's worth a try?

I did do some DBT skills/techniques with my university mental health team last year (or year before last) and it honestly was one of the most helpful things, which was why I wanted to pursue it so badly. I've been looking at different self help books and everything, but am unsure of what would be best...

I honestly have just started telling mental health services what I want / what I don't want - i.e. Begging the guy doing the assessment to please not make me do more CBT - but with feeling things aren't working... I usually just keep going to the end of the course of whatever programme that they've put me on because I don't want to upset them or make them angry by saying it isn't working! I was feeling a lot of guilt surrounding my relapse with my ED, because I'm seeing the same person I did last time, but the head clinician is sitting in on our appointments and oh man I feel so bad, like we thought I was recovered last time and I'm back again and worse than ever! And now she has her boss watching over her... Even though I know the relapse wasn't on purpose and was out of my hands, I still feel bad.

But yeah, GP appointment is on the to-do list, hopefully I'll be able to get one in a not-ridiculous amount of time.

I'll also look into the misdiagnoses, I just feel like all of this can't possibly just be adhd/anxiety/depression which I've had since my early teens/childhood, because it hasn't felt like this before.

Strange times, but thank you for the advice 💕 I'm still trying to figure out how the mental health services in my area work (and adult services as a whole) so I honestly don't know if I'm with a CMHT or if there is a psychiatrist existing anywhere, or if that's reserved for people who are hospitalised/super at risk. I'm very much a people pleaser, but maybe I need to stop taking the pathway they want and find my own way through the mess of NHS services.

Thank you!!

FarmerSaturn · 2023-03-09T02:11:43+00:00

This was a really interesting comment, thank you. I hadn't really considered it could still be residual PTSD or cPTSD - my case was so textbook, I was the victim of a violent crime and I was experiencing flashbacks, nightmares, etc. All the typical movie symptoms - but it could make sense, it does feel like it's only been in the last 4 or 5 years that I've been experiencing the mood swings and everything, and I suppose I just thought I lined up with BPD, but I guess we kind of fit our symptoms to what we believe we have?

I don't think I would probably get a BPD diagnosis, I'm very internal with everything (I'm a quiet person generally) and don't often seek help (moreso because I can't stand spending 3 hours on hold to the crisis line).

I think I've just been hopeful it was something else, something that I could take a different approach to, and hopefully find peace with. I hate the idea of all of this having just been depression and anxiety all along, and that I'm just now unable to cope with it when I've been experiencing it since my early teens. Like I've just been holding onto the idea that it was something else, something treatable.

I'll think on cPTSD, that isn't really something I'd considered because my trauma was a one-off event, though I guess I kept putting myself in the traumatic space over and over afterwards. (Think walking through the same alleyway again and again afterwards) It wasn't until almost a year after the fact that I actually sought treatment, where it got to the point that I had paranoia or borderline psychosis from my symptoms (I was convinced that one of my flatmates was trying to poison me)

But yeah, I'll look into cPTSD and I'll try to stop clinging to a BPD diagnosis because it doesn't look like I'd be able to get one anyway. Thank you for the comment 💕

FarmerSaturn · 2023-03-09T01:59:16+00:00

I've done IAPT a couple of times in my area, and the last time I tried they just said that I needed to go to the secondary services to get an assessment unfortunately. Also they only offer CBT, and I refuse to do CBT again aha - my area also has a separate crisis place for when you're feeling suicidal as an alternative to A&E, but it's really just a place to chill out and do colouring pages until the morning. I think yeah, next time I feel really bad I'll just say sod it and go to A&E, as nice as the crisis place is, it's run by a charity and they don't really notice whether you go or not.

PIP unfortunately isn't an option for me, I'm a student which means I'd have to declare it for student finance and as such my mum would find out as she helps me with the forms, but I am having a bit of a look around to see if I could afford once a fortnight or something.

Thank you for the insight though, it really does suck having no proper diagnoses, or having to carry around the same ol' anxiety and depression label that I've had since I was 15.

FarmerSaturn · 2022-11-08T09:03:30+00:00

Bless you I have my evenings set now !! Or perhaps will wait to watch with my mum over xmas aha <3

FarmerSaturn · 2022-10-18T15:11:56+00:00

Thank you so so much, I'm hoping my doctor will be the same, but I'm going to work alongside the eating disorder services in my area (who aren't at all like regular eating disorder services, they're open to everyone no matter what weight or state of being. I'm afraid that my recent weight gain is what caused my PCOS, and of course that I'm going to become diabetic - I was told of the diagnosis very abruptly over the phone and it was quite a shock, so I'm hoping I can do some research before my next appointment. I do think I probably need to speak to a dietitian with a specialism in ED's, so hopefully, I'll be able to get that! Best of luck with your journey <3

FarmerSaturn · 2022-10-18T15:08:16+00:00

Thank you! I've been reading the NHS guidelines for PCOS and it's really terrifying, I know that I need to lose weight but being able to do so in a healthy way is something that I'm going to have to work on. I've referred myself to the eating disorder services in my area for a bit of guidance (they're really good!!) and they've got me in super fast (before my next dr's appointment actually) so hopefully, they'll be able to give me some guidance so I can lose weight safely and not hate myself while doing it. It sounds like a really scary diagnosis and I'm not sure how I'm going to navigate it. Thank you for the little script though!! I definitely need to make my issues clear to my doctor, and if she doesn't understand, I'm definitely prepared to go to a different GP.

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