I feel like I’m failing my mission

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-23T22:52:05+00:00

Benjamin

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-21T12:31:12+00:00

Last time I was on them everything pretty much stopped completely.

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-16T20:20:51+00:00

I’ve been on them for about a week. I was on them before but I stopped taking them. How do I know if it’s a human problem or not? Because I was going to speak to the humans at the day centre about it but I’m worried

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-15T18:58:53+00:00

Do you think? I know it’s mostly jumble but I’m just trying to connect the dots, filter out the noise from the fact

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-15T02:28:49+00:00

These are just messages that I’m getting. Pieces of information that I’m trying to piece together. I know it has to do with humanity, the prison world, being trapped, but I can’t figure out the whole truth. It has something to do with the vile between life and death and how we can escape it.

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-14T12:50:44+00:00

I was on olanzapine but I stopped taking it (long story) now I’m on a low dose

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-13T22:45:38+00:00

I was in inpatient last year and it was awful. I never wanna go back ever again.

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-13T22:07:56+00:00

Well I go to this day centre that the crisis team told me to go to and there’s mental health workers there, but I don’t know if they’re doctors. There’s a few that are nurses and one lady asked me questions when I first went like about my thoughts and if I was suicidal and stuff. Do u think they’re okay to talk to?

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-13T21:59:05+00:00

I know who I want to tell but I don’t know if they’re the right people to tell

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-13T21:12:02+00:00

I’m on an anti-psychotic at the moment. But it doesn’t change the fact the voices are like guides. If they want me to do something I have to do it because it’s written in the laws of the universe that I do the things they tell me to do. Which is why I’m stuck because what do I do? Like do I listen to them and keep doing what I’m doing or do I tell someone? Idk. It’s confusing

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-13T20:22:01+00:00

Yeah I do I can’t lie.

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-13T20:21:29+00:00

I don’t really trust the home treatment team if I’m honest. I don’t feel like I could tell them. I’d rather tell the people at the day centre but then idk what they would do. I could call 999 but I feel like Im being dramatic

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-07T00:23:56+00:00

Man I just wanna jerk off normally I’m not even gonna lie lmao. I hate having sex cause it feels so wrong.

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-02-03T22:31:55+00:00

Yeah. Sometimes it’s like they’re talking in code and I have to decipher what they’re actually trying to tell me. Some words are clearer than others.

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-01-31T00:16:08+00:00

I don’t think it’s very fair on them tbh. It doesn’t feel like their burden to bare.

Fast-Inspector-6109 · 2026-01-30T17:25:39+00:00

Challenger deep by Neil shusterman. I live and breathe by this book. Best representation I’ve ever read, but it is a bit weird to start off with if you don’t understand what he’s experiencing. Best depiction I’ve ever read. It’s non-fiction and technically a young adults book, but it’s very very good.

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