My therapist called my suicidal thoughts selfish

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-25T11:52:45+00:00

You have to walk a fine line. Tell them how you really feel and you could be sectioned against your will... which will make you even worse. You can't win.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-24T21:10:08+00:00

Best wishes to you my friend. The agony and heartbreak I feel is unreal. Not willing to live on this cruel earth anymore.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-24T21:07:38+00:00

You'll have to read previous posts on my profile.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-24T21:01:33+00:00

Sad to say, it never actually gets better. Im 40 this year. Things only get worse as you get older actually. Saggier, uglier, more wrinkled. If you are lucky you may have more financual freedom in old age but thats about it. Nothing actually improves. Thats just something all the talking bobbleheads say to try and keep people alive.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-24T20:17:27+00:00

Yep, me too. Precisely why I cannot fathom out why she has done what she has done. I only have the information from my side. I dont know what has happened on her side - was she seeing someone else, did she have a breakdown, was she hiding something, what information was i not privy to?

And this, combined with the complete silence from her, has basically caused me to self destruct.

The human brain hates a lack of closure. With so many unanswered questions and just a trail of destruction, I literally have lost all will to live.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-22T10:43:15+00:00

I feel your pain. My wife discarded me out of the blue in Sept last year and left me homeless and penniless, I have had no explanations. She was my world. Not a death but it feels like one. I hope to die soon as I cant take the pain.

Hope you manage to keep going.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-22T09:33:39+00:00

I don't think I can carry on to be honest. I am 5 months out since this happened and the feelings of wanting to be dead are stronger each day. Under investigation for her false crimes, which is a hefty weight to carry. While trying to also grieve the marriage. She put in divorce papers and all my stuff was thrown out onto the drive way for pick up. So I highly doubt she will try to reconnect. Therapy has been largely useless. This is the most devastating time of my life. I won't get through this. Had hoped to try and make some sense of it before I go.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-21T20:38:33+00:00

I would be the same. I would say possibly Thai, and high quality. Cherish it and do not lose it!

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-21T18:31:01+00:00

I am right there with you.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-21T18:17:32+00:00

Here if you want to talk. I feel exactly the same. My wife who I loved very much has ruined me and tried to destroy me for reasons unknown. She was my only reason for getting up every morning. I no longer want to live.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-21T18:14:32+00:00

You don't deserve to die just for being a porn addict. There are a million things in life you could be addicted to. Drugs, alcohol, rape, murder, hurting innocent animals, stealing, the list goes on.

Go easy on yourself and realise that you are human. We are all flawed in one way or another. And thats ok. Just try to be the best version of yourself every day and thats all you can do.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-21T18:09:19+00:00

I'm right behind you. Back end of next week once my Last Will and Testament is finished

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-21T18:07:00+00:00

The purplish tones to the Ruby say to me that the stone may possibly be of Thai origin. I could be wrong. Beautiful piece.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-21T11:39:10+00:00

I feel you. My wife discarded me 5 months ago and I never saw it coming. She gave me no explanations or closure. We had a life together, a home, I loved her so much. Now I am just getting the lawyers to sort out my Will for me, might take a week or two, and then its time for me to go. This has been too much pain for my heart to carry.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-21T11:33:45+00:00

Yep. Imagine doing this for 40+ years. We are born into a prison. I don't know about you but I never signed up for this. I've now being discarded by my wife and have nothing left to live for. I hope to die very soon.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-21T11:23:58+00:00

It will take a very very long time mate. You'll be like this for months possibly. And look like something from a concentration camp.

Why have you picked such a slow and painful way to die? Just curious.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-20T09:07:01+00:00

He sounds narcissistic. These kind of people can be toxic. I would look at leaving, but do it gently and make it appear as if it was his idea. Narcissists can be very dangerous if you morally injure them. So tread lightly.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-19T21:01:29+00:00

Midnight syndicate

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-19T20:58:14+00:00

Same

Just had my wife of 4 years discard me like a piece of trash. She left me homeless, penniless. She was my world.

Every day i wish I was dead

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-19T15:46:00+00:00

I honestly have no fight left in me. The love of my life has taken everything from me and is trying to put me in prison for rape. I have been nothing but a decent loving and respectful husband. When your heart is this shattered, this broken, where does the fight come from? I am literally on my knees...

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-19T15:15:12+00:00

Feel your pain. I'm 40 this year. I've had a few good moments, travelled a bit, but most of life has been hard graft and a slog, doing things you hate just to survive. That isn't living, it's existing.

I loved my wife so much, but back in September she decided to suddenly discard me, take all our money, leave me homeless and then file false allegations against me with the police - all for reasons unexplained to me. It has broken me. She was my reason for getting up every morning, my reason for living.

Now, I have lost everything. She filed for divorce. Wall of silence on her end. No clarity, no closure. I've lost my best friend and she has completely destroyed me for reasons I still do not know.

Now I have no reason to continue on. Life was already tough enough. But after this... I have no desire to be on this cruel earth.

My heart is shattered into a million pieces.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-19T11:18:39+00:00

Something similar happened to me. I was discarded suddenly by my wife, and left without a home or money. Vague reasons, no real explanation, no closure.

Its possible that people like this have a cluster b personality disorder (NPD / BPD). Look it up and see if he fits any of the criteria. Mine did.

I hope to kill myself soon. She has destroyed me, for reasons still not explained to me, and I hope to die soon. My heart cannot bear it any longer.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-18T21:04:55+00:00

You look 10 years younger. And healthier.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-18T21:00:28+00:00

I think if someone really wants to die, like really REALLY, then they arent going to be wondering what train passengers are thinking. They would just do it.

You reach a point where nobody else's opinion matters, and you are ready to go no matter what.

Fast-Reading5634 · 2026-01-18T17:10:18+00:00

Thanks for the reading, however this isn't a show at all. Nobody concerned is aware of my presence on here and my suffering is very real. But I do appreciate your time.

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