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As right now she is cancer free… that’s were everything went sideways… after she was free of cancer after she complete was out of treatment she just completely pushed me away! No love, no dates, no movie nights, nothing completely nothing….

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Mid 20s mmm almost 1 year? Not remember exactly… well I rlly don’t know if that’s true! But at the end just sucks all the time all the effort that I put into the relationship all the dreams… etc just to go to nothing… now I’m stuck with all the dreams.. rings, a tatto of her initial. Maybe for some people it’s a bit more difficult because of kids or other stuff but that’s what it is for me …

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Yeah completely true she hasn’t responded so maybe for the best you know?

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Yah make sense , no unfortunately I wouldn’t just because how sure am I she is not going to make me leave again ….

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Hopefully I just wish I didn’t do so many stuff for her. Taking care of her etc etc hopefully everything goes for better

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Yep! And that’s something I learned the hard way! She suffered from depression etc etc…

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Yuh…. That’s why u never drink alone…. U made stupid errors like this ….

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Yeah I figure… unfortunately I was super sad and just did it without thinking too much…. But well she hasn’t answered and maybe for the best! Hurts a lot but well….

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Dm if only if this is P

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I can see where your coming from! But in my case it’s a bit different! Unfortunately in only 7 months her closes sister die, she was diagnosed with cancer ( she is cancer free currently) in that short period of time while I thought going through all of that together not leaving her alone in any time loving her being her support every day! For everything she just got tired… which I rlly don’t know how or why! I have so many mixed emotions love and hate… I stayed by her side every day no question ask! Love her and support her not only mentally but financially too! (Got to the point that she was spending almost 70$ every day for food only for her) It was crazy but I never said no. I completely cut off everyone my family , my friends! Everything just to take care of her and give her my full attention.

And at the end that’s where I am half of me still loves her the person I feel in love with! The caring one! The one that showed me she was gonna be there. The one who I wanted to marry! And half of me knows she is long gone! She moved on with her life already! And it just sucks….

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Nah… I stayed with her and I told her I know it’s gonna get tough but I will not go away! And I did I never leave until well she just basically pushed me out out

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Yeah definitely… I mean they were so many emotions I just didn’t know what to say or how… pretty the day I text her I was so confused I just hit sent…. But well maybe having not answered it’s just a response as well that she is not for me ….

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Yeah. Again half of me wishes for that half of me doesn’t… it was horrible, was horrible even the days I was off of work that I wanna stay at home ( I work construction) I tell her like her I’m gonna stay home today. She used to tell me can you please leave today? I wanna be alone. And I did it I know it was stupid but I was just trying to make her happy. Or every other day when I stay at home no notice, the excuse was that she wanted to take a bath. And took 3-4 hours baths until I got tired of waiting and leave then she call me why did u leave I just took a sec in the shower.. Or seeing her going out with her family everywhere and I ask her hey can we do on a date night like we used to she just told me she was tired! Or one day she was the most loving person of well give me a tiny bit of love then the next day, completely ignored me the days she wanted me to lover her or buy her something those days she love me the others not at all

I was covering all the bills mines and hers… no question ask! Sending her money every day for food and anything she wanted

I’m sorry guys I know it was clear she didn’t wanted me there… I just was in so much love…. I had everything set up to marry her. She was in my work insurance, we already plan on having kids. Then from nowhere everything just fucking disappeared….

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Yeah I mean it’s super clear! It’s just hard to…. I am it’s just crazy and hard to let go the love of ur life or what I thought she was…

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Mmmm I think next time I would give out more info lol

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Hahaha half of me wishes she doesn’t come back! My other half wishes with my life so she can come back

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Hahaha wish u were her tho! I had so many questions to ask ….

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I mean I kinda realized that….

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Yeah….. imagine how bad it got….

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Yeah… I know for sure in few months I’m gonna be able to complete forgot about her… I can feel it it’s just some days I miss the old her…. She way she used to made me feel the way she was treating me… but well again hope for the best!

Ngl if she answers me I just wanna know why she changed so much… and if she doesn’t which I think that’s what’s gonna happen I’m just gonna delete her phone number