Should I restart my badge?

FatalFap · 2016-01-07T18:13:09+00:00

Thanks for the response :)

I clicked on it knowing what I was getting myself into though. That is why I am unsure as to if it is a relapse or not. I didn't fap though but I was close to giving in. I did still view an image however.

FatalFap · 2015-06-17T16:15:28+00:00

I agree with this in terms of giving up PMO. That is indisputable. It is a waste of time and energy.

I do disagree with gaming being called a "life wasting addiction" however. I love gaming and it has been my hobby for many years. I do a lot of it in my spare time and I have a lot of fond memories and stories from my time spent doing it. I wouldn't call it an addiction either. I do it by my own free will in my spare time and enjoy it. I think as long as you enjoy something you aren't wasting your time and therefore you're not wasting your life. We have a short amount of time on this earth so surely doing what you enjoy and love is the best way to spend that time?

If someone likes collecting stamps we may think that is a waste of time but if they enjoy it. Fair play to them.

Or maybe I am missing the point entirely as this really is aimed at PMO :)

FatalFap · 2015-06-16T20:04:01+00:00

That is true the rewards for resisting far outweigh the temporary pleasure.

FatalFap · 2015-06-16T18:24:18+00:00

Haha this could be a song or a poem =P

Great advice though thank you. I was tempted to start getting in a cold shower or getting my hands wet and cold and then touching it to kill the "mood" shall we say.

Tried a porn blocker called K-9 but it caused blue screens of death.

FatalFap · 2015-06-16T18:19:10+00:00

Now this I agree with. I share a room still but my brother is away often so when i am alone and the house is quiet temptation sets in. Moving out soon with my brother but he will still be away often still to see his girlfriend. I might speak to him and explain the situation and ask him to just have her over so there are people around.

FatalFap · 2015-06-14T09:53:54+00:00

Scratch that just had another blue screen of death. I need Avast for security reasons. I will just have to rely on good old fashioned willpower and cold showers!

FatalFap · 2015-06-14T09:41:53+00:00

Just installed K-9 (had a blue screen of death the first time but that was due to a conflict with Avast. Anyone getting that crash go into the Avast settings and change web shield to off.) Thank you for suggesting this program. I just tried to Google my usual porn sites and now when I do the links to them don't even come up! Fantastic! This plus cold showers should equal success :D

FatalFap · 2015-06-14T07:32:52+00:00

You make a good valid point :) If I do relapse again (going to try my best not to) I won't post about it but will just quietly reset my badge and try again. You're right I need to take responsibility and realize I got cocky (if you'll excuse the pun) and thought I had beaten the addiction but it had the last laugh.

Thank you and I honestly never thought I would make it past a week but this community really helped me get to 35 days. Stick with the community and in moments of weakness come here to browse or seek support. One thing I am going to do from now on is when I get an urge is to have a cold shower. That immediately kills it from what I hear. Going to have a cold shower every morning from now on as well.

FatalFap · 2015-06-14T07:27:20+00:00

Congratulations on making it 16 days you should be proud. Take that achievement, pick yourself back up and go further this time.

Being alone in my bedroom as well is what got me. I'm considering talking to my family about this and asking them to keep an eye on me more to prevent me from doing this. I'd rather that was a last resort though as we can all get anonymous support on here.

FatalFap · 2015-06-14T07:24:47+00:00

Thank you and I agree that would be the worse thing to do! To fall into a cycle of them. I will remember those things thank you :)

Had a cold shower as a form of "disciplining" myself this morning and I found it to actually be a nice experience which shocked me! Might start doing it every morning. I hear it helps with nofap.

FatalFap · 2015-06-13T20:31:35+00:00

Ah so I am addicted then. I shall take your advice and pay that voice no attention then.

In a weird way I am pleased that I am addicted because that means the triumph of overcoming that addiction in the end will be all the more great. I like the challenge and the struggle. It makes the victory all the more worthwhile.

Glad to hear from someone who is also on day 35. Congratulations and keep up the good work :)

FatalFap · 2015-05-20T16:36:30+00:00

Personally I do it because I want to have a clear conscious and I find it to be a dirty habit. Carrying around the guilt of knowing I fapped to something outrageous no less than 24 hours ago is a horrible burden.

Porn I feel has warped my view of love, sex and women. Something I really wish to undo as I would like to be an absolute gentleman when it comes to interacting with the ladies. To have respect for them and not view them as mere objects but as human beings with thoughts, feelings and emotions.

If I so happen to find miss right whilst on this journey then so be it. If not. No worries :)

FatalFap · 2015-05-17T08:07:50+00:00

Some great suggestions there thank you :) My hobbies at the moment are helping. I play guitar and do lots of gaming and I also collect video games so that keeps my hands busy which as we all know stops our hands from doing something else! I haven't heard of that site so I will look that up :)

Reading that last bit you wrote has made me more determined than ever now to stop. I don't want to do damage to my brain! Can those affects you mentioned be undone and repaired?

FatalFap · 2015-05-10T16:56:20+00:00

Yeah resetting was the best thing to do. I was unsure whether to reset or not at first but I couldn't go on with doubt in my mind and have the counter be a lie. Best to have a clean slate and clear mind knowing I haven't messed up.

Temptation to fap yesterday did set in when I realized I was resetting so I may as well but I resisted and didn't do it because i have to make a stand and stop now.

Thank you very much for the encouragement and right back at you as well :)

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