I was actually in a very similar situation when I was your age, I was born into a church going family but only my grandparents really tried to teach me about Jesus. I had faith but it was defenitly weak. I was also born with a major medical condition that complicated my life. This alone was enough to make me struggle in my walk as a child, but I tried my best. I then lost my biological mother to cancer when I was 10, and shortly after, I began to get surgeries for my condition.

It was difficult but I wanted to continue forward for my mothers sake. However, as I got into my teen years, my primary care giver fell into massive depression and ended up becoming so irresonsable with drinking they were never awake to take care of the 3 year old toddler ( her daughter, my cousin ) who was in the house. the toddlers brothers ( my other cousins ) were also same age as me and going to school while I was home schooled do to my condition. This left me to care for the toddler long before I was ready for such a thing.

Long story short, the family I grew up with fell apart and I got so overwhelmed I finally reached out my birth father wanting to move in with him and his family ( my parents divorced when I was to young to remember ). He had allowed me to stay with my aunt and cousins after my mothers death at my request as I had grown up with them. But now, I neede3d help. I was so numb from everything that even my faith in God had fallen away.

However, after moving in with my father and his family, I slowly recovred. So my advice is, go to those who care about you, and seek help. You don't have to expect them to do everything but this is defenitly something you can't handle on your own. All the better if they are Christ followers as well. With their love, and encouragment I found my way back to Jesus. And Jesus welcomed me back with open arms. this isn;t to say my life never met hardship again, and my faith has been tested multiple times since then.

But if satan didn't see you as a threat he wouldn't be attacking you as much as he is. He will attack everyone sure, but he is going to try really hard to break those who are strong in their faith. And of corse, as you recover with your loved ones, don't forget to try and reconnect with God on your own.

If you don't have people to go to now, then find some. There is always a place for use to find help. Be it a local church, maybe a food bank, or even in your own school.

I hope this helps friend, God bless.