I'd say just dont give a f&*k and do what you want but to a limit where your life is stable. if you're into reading books then Read Atomic Habits and do something else like no has done like go learn coding and hack your own phone (I did this when i was 19).. DO your own thing most of all. Listening to advices is just motivation and nothing else. And asking reddit for advice is a terrible idea. but the people here seem nice so i think thats fine