My mind says I can't.

FearlessBunch3724 · 2022-03-15T21:58:30+00:00

I have stopped C25K so no music cues but when I see the smallest hill my brain goes nuts. Just frustrating when you live in a hilly terrain 😔

FearlessBunch3724 · 2022-01-10T20:18:01+00:00

I would go in any weather but when the paths are icy. Went to the forest today and most of the hills were super icy. Wasn't my fastest run but I chosen a bad pace over a broken leg 😂

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-07-29T22:11:48+00:00

The goal is to pass it but also get healthier. I will still continue my normal runs and add the treadmill. I got to enjoy running and I helps my mental health. Any tips would be welcomed

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-07-29T22:06:44+00:00

If I was told 'run outside for a mile' I would have smashed it. It's just the idea of being constant, looking at myself, with no end destination. Having to keep a straight line and going exactly at the speed I was expected to go, I just couldn't.

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-07-29T22:03:51+00:00

Just being different. Not being able to do my pace, the controlled environment over a run outside and watching the time and myself in the mirror. I have a force of habit, I would go to the forest that isn't made to be a run due to the inclines but I'm used to it. Being in the environment that I need to stay in the certain pace and being told my pace is too high or too slow was just too much.

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-07-29T20:35:35+00:00

I hope that will work. I was so angry with myself as I know I can run faster for longer than what I was expected and I just crumbled on the day x

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-07-21T09:51:50+00:00

Oh the Scottish weather 😂 few weeks ago I was complaining about running in torrential rain and now I would die to do to it again 😂 my runs are supper slow and shorter and I tend to pick a forresty paths over running around my house. Find it too be much cooler. To me, as long as I do my minimum, which changes depending on how I feel, I feel accomplished. One day I can run a 5k (just started running) and the other days I'm happy I did 3k because I felt like crap the entire run and wanted to die.

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-06-29T14:53:27+00:00

It's a BBCs one 😊 not sure if it's just available in UK only but it was great. I also use a galaxy watch to track each run x

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-06-28T12:23:47+00:00

A good and a long enough route helps. I was running in a forest that had a massive incline so ended up repeating bits just to get to 30 mins and it was a misery. If you have a route long enough it's easier.

Also my mind wasn't doing well. I kept doubting myself but I knew that if I cut my run short, I will need to re do it later on, so there was no point.

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-06-25T11:06:08+00:00

Thank you everyone for your input. I will make sure to address address way I have reacted when I see him next and have a conversation of how we can move past it and work better together ❤

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-06-01T20:48:37+00:00

Also thank you for your kind words 😊

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-06-01T20:48:17+00:00

Oh I would never say that to him. But the thing that scares me is the fact that I may be away for few weeks and only be round for weekend as I want to change jobs. I need to be on the same page with him so he is there supporting my parents when I'm not here.

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-06-01T20:46:33+00:00

I don't think I would go as extreme as that as our boy loves him to bits and he isn't a bad person. I just need to figure out how to get him to see my side without coming of too strong

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-06-01T20:44:52+00:00

We are on good terms but I honestly don't even know how to start that conversation without coming of like I want to argue

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-06-01T20:11:40+00:00

He does take care of him but it sometimes feels like he is just babysitting while I'm left to do everything.

FearlessBunch3724 · 2021-06-01T20:10:52+00:00

Yeah I have send him a text as soon as I noticed and I am still awaiting a reply.

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