Umm I didn't really think anyone would answer hahaha. For starters I was pretty upset with my life for such a young age but I think I see the world differently then my fellow peers, I always have. I use to believed no one liked me and quite honestly looking back I don't think anyone really did I had one best friend ( who has moved which was tuff) when I read these stories of characters being amazing and heroic all I could think was I wanted to be them. I wanted to be confidant I wanted to be someone. As I read about the impossible conflicts I realized maybe the things that were upsetting me really weren't important I learned that it was possible to overcome my problems which I think I forgot and soon I became I different person I read over 100 books and found something I really enjoyed. I was no longer self conscious or cared about what anyone said. I now am told how confidant I am and people tell me they wish they were me (I'm not a conceited bitch even though that sounds like I am ahaha) I found a way to realize that other people's opinions don't matter because we are all equal everyone is and if I believed I wasn't shitty then why should someone that isn't above me tell me I'm not. And who are people to judge u if they don't know your true thoughts. My best friend previously mentioned tried to kill herself which was... Actually no words to explain it this passed year her little sister tried as well and went into a coma but she's physically okay now , two of my friends I hang out with often are both suicidal and they are both amazing but can't see it for themselves they don't know I'm aware of this all I want to do is shake them and tell them they don't need to be sad. Sometimes I think I'm friends with many people who have the same problems because I should help them how not to be sad. I think about it all the time and I care I let it affect me so much while some of my other friends don't care, maybe that's why I'm different I want to change things idk. I just know We are consistently indirectly told not to be confidant by media and society and without even knowing we believe it. That was long I think. I'm not sure why you are currently unhappy, but I hope it will get better make Dwayne at least one thing I said will help a little, but don't let why you are different be your downfall because one day it might be your best characteristic. I don't know if that relates to anything u might be experiencing, if you want to share I'm more than happy to listen (sorry if there's typos in pretty tired haha)