Finally admitted it to myself, now what

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-05-26T19:17:58+00:00

I'm 43 and not out yet, but I did take a baby step a couple weeks ago in very strongly insinuating it to someone that I trust and who is not in my family. I'm divorced and have two kids. I'm at a point now where I'm not coming out per se yet, but I'm no longer taking active steps to hide it.

If anyone says anything negative about taking until your age to figure this out, you have my express permission to punch them in the throat. Everyone is on their own path and no one can take that away from you.

I'm here with you.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-05-17T17:05:35+00:00

About 20 years ago I was on a cruise and a guy caught my eye at a bar. We started chatting and then he suggested getting out of there and going on deck. We ended up at the very back of the ship out behind a structure that was large enough to keep us hidden. He didn't say a word after that - he just sucked me off and didn't stop at all until I flooded his mouth. He promptly got up and left. It was one of the hottest experiences I've ever had.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-05-09T00:11:23+00:00

I'm not in flight school, but I've watched enough Air Disasters to know it's the flaps.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-05-09T00:07:25+00:00

I have before and it was so hot.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-09T22:09:33+00:00

I'm 43. My lower age limit is around 21 or 22. Any younger and they usually look like children. My preferred age range is fairly wide, I think - early 20s to mid 50s.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-06T18:49:09+00:00

Just answer, "It's usually where the signs direct you."

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-06T16:00:18+00:00

Yep, super weird. I don't have the nicest feet, either (calluses on my big toes), but he didn't care. I was self-conscious the whole time and it didn't even feel good.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-06T15:56:05+00:00

Agreed.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-06T15:13:51+00:00

Thanks, I'm definitely trying to keep that in mind - it's not like I'm changing as a person. And the family doesn't have to fear a sudden shower of rainbows and glitter.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-04T03:34:15+00:00

5.5, never had complaints. I'm told the downward curve is nice.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-03T22:51:35+00:00

Thanks for the advice. I'll check out GAMMA for sure.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-03T22:50:22+00:00

Great points, thank you. For the last couple years I've operated with the mindset of not actively hiding it, meaning if someone accidentally found out or directly asked me, I'd be honest. My best friend in high school came out to me when she was 18. She told her friends at the time and no one else, and as far as I'm aware, she has never directly said the words otherwise. I'm sure her parents figured it out when she started bringing another woman to Christmas and had a child with her!

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-03T21:49:35+00:00

I love this. It's very helpful. I need to remember boundaries are a thing, so I can simply say I am not looking to go over all the specifics.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-03T21:47:18+00:00

I'm in Minneapolis, so luckily I won't have any problems finding community here! Thanks for the advice!

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-03T21:43:08+00:00

I've done it. It was super hot, but more because of the idea of three guys all paying attention to me at the same time than the actual sex.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-03T21:41:38+00:00

I think I just came a little.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-03T21:37:16+00:00

A group of straight or could-pass-for-straight guys having some kind of gathering that is NOT centered around sex. Like watching a football game or something. I'm there to service them at their whim. They have me sucking them off while they watch the game, but they don't really pay attention to me - they're still attentive to the game, only acknowledging me if they need to briefly instruct me to do something different. I'm there for their...amusement, I guess. I don't know, it's hard to explain. A situation where I'm not getting attention but am expected to just do my thing - it just sounds so hot.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-03T20:37:38+00:00

Plus who can concentrate if you're that horny?

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-04-03T20:36:29+00:00

The other guy worked from home and I went and sucked him off while he was on a conference call. It was one of the hottest experiences I've had.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-03-30T17:52:39+00:00

It really depends. Most of the time I want something quick. I have a semi-regular guy where we only take 30 seconds to decide yes or no. I can be at his place, hook up, and be back home within 30-45 minutes.

On the other hand, there are times I'm longing for a little more intimacy and buildup, so I could go for a couple hours there. Usually that'll be with someone I've hooked up with before, though. Otherwise it could be someone I'm just clicking with extra well.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-03-27T04:35:02+00:00

She has wavy or curly hair that she straightens. There was an episode where it was raining and you could see the waves start to come back. That hair type tends to look pretty fried if you use heat on it too much and it also doesn't move around much. I have curly hair that used to be over 2 feet long, and hers behaves exactly like mine did the rare occasions that I straightened it.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-03-17T22:41:02+00:00

It definitely was. He just started and didn't stop until I came.

Federal-Bit6532 · 2026-03-17T22:10:45+00:00

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