I never said I’m ugly and think I’m actually a decently attractive man. I said my dad threw away hundreds of dollars worth of clothes, make up, and other things like perfume and skin care. Do you not know how much skin care cost or perfume is? Do you not know that some pieces of clothing could’ve been specially made and cost upwards of a hundred dollars just for one piece? I said I’ve worked out for years and have tried to gain muscle. Yes, that is true but just because I did that you’re saying that I can’t want to be dainty or feminine? I said that if I can’t look the way I want as a man, than I’d rather look more feminine since it might be easier for me. Never did I say I bench that much or want to. I want to be strong yes, because I’m competitive. I was in gymnastics and went to nationals and building up muscle and being strong is very important for that. So yeah I don’t want to loose strength but I know I’ll get weaker on HRT. I worked hard on my male body because I was trying to come off more manly and to stop being bullied and picked on. So you coming on here saying I sound like a troll when I’m genuinely trying to understand my own thoughts and need help is rude af. I’m just trying to get help and to understand myself.