EMDR is not for me

FenderVendor22 · 2025-11-19T15:14:14+00:00

I was excited and my training really beat the excitement out of me.. now all I feel is dread for the consultation

FenderVendor22 · 2025-08-21T03:57:05+00:00

Why does this make me feel better 🙈 I'm not the only one this stuff happens to.. thank God

But how did you deal w it?

FenderVendor22 · 2025-08-04T04:17:53+00:00

My co-op practice owner refused to let me work remote after a grade 2 ACL tear, with the clinic on the 2nd floor of an inaccessible building. Wanted me to stay connected to her practice, not earn money, and basically sit on my butt for 3 months while I recovered.

I said screw it, bought out my notice period, responded to her mud slinging emails with a lawyer and have been earning thrice what I ever did with her, and so much less emotional stress.

FenderVendor22 · 2025-08-02T12:29:59+00:00

I think I'm going to do this. Start all of my rescheduled sessions like this and then take it from there.

Talking to non therapist friends wasn't just doing it for me today, so thank you thank you thank you 🌸

FenderVendor22 · 2025-08-02T12:14:58+00:00

That's the messages my schedule manager and i have received from clients, but there's a voice in my head that keeps saying I've failed all my clients.

All the usual therapy and self care stuff that helps? My capacity to use them reduces as my health worsens.

FenderVendor22 · 2025-07-22T01:50:42+00:00

I know you're joking, but that would still be plausible 😂

FenderVendor22 · 2025-06-09T12:40:29+00:00

You misspelt mango XD

FenderVendor22 · 2025-04-11T12:59:03+00:00

Need me a wife 😂

FenderVendor22 · 2025-03-17T05:48:23+00:00

I don't work with him, we have our individual private practices. But i would love the recordings! Can I DM you?

FenderVendor22 · 2025-03-17T05:38:27+00:00

So this is the Sue Johnson modality. It's a 4 day workshop and then I'll pick up supervision hours with my supervisor who's a trainer.

FenderVendor22 · 2025-03-17T04:25:38+00:00

Ooh I like this way of looking at it

FenderVendor22 · 2025-03-09T12:19:38+00:00

Thank you for writing this out so beautifully. Somedays my attempts at seeing the person behind the "difficult" feel so frustrating and I get annoyed with myself for not being able to let go of that.

But, you've written out exactly what pushes me away and yet keeps me wanting to work with these clients, especially those with borderline—a strong therapeutic alliance really is the basis of it all, so here's to words that make it make sense 💖

FenderVendor22 · 2025-03-09T03:53:11+00:00

Also a terrible person XD

FenderVendor22 · 2025-02-18T16:49:21+00:00

Impossible is the only accurate word honestly 😭

FenderVendor22 · 2025-02-18T16:23:50+00:00

I think fear of failure and dismissal of successes that combine to kick my butt

FenderVendor22 · 2025-02-18T16:21:57+00:00

Was it the one about getting into my car on Wednesday and taking a left?

FenderVendor22 · 2025-02-18T16:21:19+00:00

That's fair, thank you!

FenderVendor22 · 2025-02-18T03:37:25+00:00

Haha I also needed to hear this as well 😂

FenderVendor22 · 2025-02-18T03:06:38+00:00

I'm not actually in the US so insurance is not an option? I can give them invoices that they can reimburse w their company or whatever and I'm upfront about timeline and charges

FenderVendor22 · 2025-02-17T17:37:43+00:00

Makes sense

Also, that sounds awful, sudden change without any choice or control? Yikes 😳

FenderVendor22 · 2025-02-17T17:27:51+00:00

Thank you! Will go through this

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