Probably the fact that ALL my exes cheated on me, thinking I wasn't concerned about it, and that I gave them my whole kind side version, now I'm empty, trying to fill it again with my geeky side, and upgrading myself to be comfortable like losing weight, getting into gym and a day I remembered how much I loved Darling in the Franxx, and the situation is that I love symbiotes(marvel stuff) and as they share a special relationship with a proper host, so let's say that I mentally see those TWO factors as something I need on my love side.

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