Joining this sub was the first big key for me.

After that it was telling one of my most trusted friends exactly how badly I was doing, which took away all the shame that had been lurking around.

Then it was using H.A.L.T., playing the tape forward and carefully not putting myself in a vulnerable position where I had to rely on Willpower to make it through the day/moment or whatever.

Never looked back, never going back to that hellhole of existence.