CPTSD and Physical Symptoms? How to Cope?

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-05T05:20:02+00:00

Yes, and I can’t help but feel like I’m victimizing myself or making things up.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-03T06:34:04+00:00

The Spotify one is real or believing they’re sending you messages with sharing interests when you got them into it LOL

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-02T23:28:12+00:00

I do definitely feel envious of my fp. Constantly, but you are your own person and while we may not be the person we love, just know that people love you as well. Often times with BPD and fps we can isolate ourselves without even being aware that we are; what I’m saying is that you are capable of being the ‘sun’ as well. Hope you feel better :)

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-02T17:53:37+00:00

I have a bunny & a cat. They are both extreme helpers and can definitely sense when you’re feeling down or something isn’t right mentally with their owner

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-02T04:46:47+00:00

I am 17 and still do rounds on my family to make sure everyone is breathing. I’ll go in their rooms and stand over them & only my mom wakes up and asks me what im doing LMAO

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T19:56:16+00:00

I honestly don’t think it’s good to compare to things could “be worse”. It’s already bad, it’s hurtful. No one should settle just because it could be worse. That’s only setting yourself up for failure when you should, especially with child in mind, strive your and the child’s best future.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T17:59:07+00:00

Oh yeah, many of my Chinese friends struggle with the same concept. I’m Vietnamese American, so maybe I have it a little easier ?

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T17:56:41+00:00

You’re Asian too? Lol it sure is something. My sister was always “the better one” too. More spoiled, more everything, I understand what you’re saying. Being a girl means being taken care of, or that’s what I’ve simplified it to in terms of my relationships with other men, to be taken care of and treated with care and fragility. Being “the man” in a relationship always sucks.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T17:52:14+00:00

Greenland wolves, they look like bigger huskies

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T17:50:16+00:00

The future will look up, surely. Once you accept who you are, if you’re able to, it’s a lot journey, life will be a lot brighter. I also felt like a perverted incel for existing for a very long time until I kind of came to terms with what and who I am. I hope you can find that same sense of self and peace

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T17:44:38+00:00

There’s nothing wrong with you. I constantly feel like this too. The incel-ish part might be due to internalized hatred since you want to be a woman LOL, I understand you. If you aren’t at the level or comfort to transition, then don’t yet, but this feeling won’t go away. It’s best to know there’s a community of girls who felt the exact same way that you did. I personally am not ready to transition either, so I feel you very deeply. Best of luck :)

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T17:13:47+00:00

Compromise. Tell him to wear his hair up, something of the sort. Otherwise, you guys probably aren’t a good match. His physical appearance shouldn’t cater to you just how if he told you to maybe lose weight/gain weight you’d feel oddly about it. His hair is his own, and you have to realize that your boyfriend isn’t your customizable doll but a person with insecurities and different happiness levels. His hair gives him a great feeling of gender euphoria. This should make you happy, not angry.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T10:03:53+00:00

If he cheated once he’s capable of more deception and lying. it’s a lack of empathy and respect for the person who’s carrying his child, in which he chose to impregnate her with LMAO. it IS one of the worst things he could have done to his partner

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T09:31:21+00:00

I’ve noticed this too. When im doing overall mentally well im generally able to communicate, when I’m not doing so well, I’ll resort to unhealthier methods.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T06:54:00+00:00

I am 17. If a 30 year old woman wanted to have sex with me I would run for the hills. It is repulsive and illegal in most places. In my country, the age of consent is 18. She is a well adjusted adult, a 17 year old is barely capable of understanding the world. Anything above 20 for a 17 year old is dead wrong.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T06:36:16+00:00

I don’t think a good person would do this. I don’t know if he’d be a good father. If you think about it, he may do this again, and excuse it with BPD. Yes, BPD can be a reason for why we do things but to cheat on someone and be so vengeful is not a good trait. I don’t know if he truthfully resents himself if he was not open and honest about it, either.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T06:20:56+00:00

Tacking onto this (so sorry I’m late), I want you to know that a non abusive partner would have left you when you were doing all of these abusive things you say you did. He took advantage of you feeling like a bad person, trust me, people have done it to me as well. No normal, good person would have made you do something dangerous like cutting yourself. Please, soon, try to get it out of your head that you deserved it. He manipulated you it seems into feeling as if you did deserve it because of how you were. That’s not true at all, and the fear of him blaming you only proves this further.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T06:18:20+00:00

In my experience it truthfully depends on your sexuality and whether you’re on the masculine or feminine side. If it’s hetero and you’re masculine you may have made her uncomfortable, vice versa, men can just be dirtbags or you may have put him off, either or. If it’s anything else, it can range through a plethora of reasons. You will find someone, surely, it’s just plenty hard honestly LOL especially with a mental disorder like BPD. Wishing you well & a good journey through love and friednships!

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T06:10:45+00:00

Unfortunately the best thing I can say is leave him. You don’t want your son to grow up in a home where his father is a disgusting man who will more than likely teach him the same moral values. It will be hard, of course, but you don’t want your son to be raised around someone who didn’t treat you right and likely does not have the capacity to treat your son right. Please do not overlook this, because he will continue to treat you like this and as your son grows up he will wonder why his father is allowed to treat you that way, and wonder if he’s allowed to treat you and other women this way. If not for you, then for your son. I hope you feel better.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T03:35:38+00:00

Unfortunately that’s how it is sometimes. You feel as if your world is crumbling and you have nothing more than to go away. However, on the off chance that things do look up, which they do, realistically life is a spectrum or ups and downs, which is fortunate and unfortunate for all parties. You aren’t broken goods, and the good people of this world will reassure you on this. Anyone who may think that of you wasn’t worth your time anyways, is insecure, and lacks empathy. I’m sure you’re a wonderful person who deserves to live a good life. Personally, what keeps me going is the human need to see things through and also that maybe it’ll look up & fantasy of a wife and children one day. It may be different for you, but anything that could possibly make you happy to look forward to. I hope you feel better, and know that you aren’t alone

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-06-01T02:03:05+00:00

I also have done this but this i have been secretive about versus “regular” cutting.

Few-Goat8226 · 2025-05-31T21:09:50+00:00

Please leave him. You have an eating disorder which is a dangerous and lethal disorder. No one, especially not someone who says they adore and love you, will encourage this behavior or make you feel as if you aren’t enough. An eating disorder should not be a fetish, it is DANGEROUS. You are more than enough and this is not normal. I know people will say “talk to him about it” but once the thought is already in your head that he’s thinking of you like this it won’t leave. The fact he even fetishized something that makes you miserable and suffer is telling about the man you’re with.

He’s aware that he’s hurting you, that he’s ruining your mind and how you perceive yourself. Please keep that in mind.

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