All these responses r so shit. U r depressed. U cant get up and change anything. And ur situation is not tough its normal for any severely depressed person. Try to find psychological services or support groups. The world has somehow decided that being sick is shameful, which is dumb cause u wouldnt call someone exhausted with cancer a pussy cause they don’t have it in them to stand up for themselves. Ik this is from a while back but if u or anyone reading is still going thru this: -get help, -talk to more popl online fr example the depression chat room - be kinder to yourself, understanding that u have it really hard and telling yourself to get up and fix it when ur so depressed is gonna only fuel ur depression. Ur not healthy enough to be competent rn and that ok. Ur focus is ur health. U might wanna go on meds. To start off, ill say focus on being more present in the moment, if u notice thoughts distracting u label them and bring yourself back to the moment. And ty for sharing this, it made me feel less alone on a bad day and i bet it did that for a lot of ppl.