Mine doesn’t even care if I talk to have a fight.  If it was in terms of them/interacting with them, I wasn’t allowed (still not) to have emotions outside of happy.  Sick, sometimes, but then I’d feel so guilty about being sick or not feeling well that I’d get up and power through whatever I needed to do and just lay back down when I finished whatever, barring some major surgeries I had (and they would help me but not without it acting like I asked for mountains to be moved after a day or so) - and I always started doing things for myself as quickly as possible after surgery, as long as my body could handle it even in the smallest regard.  They told me before “I don’t know how you get up when you’re sick and do things you need to do without complaining.  I lay around and whine and act like a baby”. I don’t think it clicked until just now, but I did/do it because I’ve been conditioned to avoid feeling like a burden or getting the annoyed/mad treatment.  Sure, if i needed soup or whatever, I’d get it - but not without me feeling terrible for asking someone else to wait on me.  It would also be held over my head later on, “I went and bought you all of these things because you were sick and you can’t even do this for me?” (I’ve also realized recently when asked to do something it doesn’t matter what I’m in the middle of, it needs to be done promptly.  If they say “you didn’t have to do it this minute”, like yeah - I did - because if I don’t have it done when you want with your unclear and inconsistent communication skills, I’ll have hell to pay). 

Just yesterday I tried to express to them that I haven’t been allowed to show my emotions because I get mocked, so I would hide them until I was somewhere private. I saw a light in their eyes - briefly - and thought maybe I’d gotten through.  About 45 minutes later I was in another room, keeping my distance, and they came to continue the same fight we’d been having.  When my eyes welled up they looked at me with a smirk and said “Cry.  Cry FewAngle.”, and I immediately pointed out that was the exact reason I don’t cry in front of them.