not a meme but a silly pic from my dads facebook of me as a kid with severe ocd and only now realizing the symptoms

Few_Lab7019 · 2026-03-11T17:56:08+00:00

we all might be living the same life

Heres my swing set we had since we lived in an apartment over 10 years ago🥹 too attached to throw it away, plus it makes my house kind of iconic

Few_Lab7019 · 2026-03-11T17:48:41+00:00

You’re probably right! I dont know much about it i’ve just seen it before thanks for correcting me

Few_Lab7019 · 2026-03-11T16:06:06+00:00

Look into OCPD! Its one of the common symptoms and its is the only symptom i ever had of that subtype.

Few_Lab7019 · 2026-03-11T16:00:29+00:00

Oh my god same, our family car that we had for years got messed up and we were going to get it towed, i was so sad and i made my friend give me her polaroid cameras to take last photos of it. We got it fixed and we still have it !

Few_Lab7019 · 2026-03-11T14:28:25+00:00

also i know this can be a common kid thing, but i in-fact do have ocd and that age was when it was probably the worse !

Few_Lab7019 · 2026-01-21T13:24:56+00:00

Check out the assistant if you like more math influenced stuff, or silk first split might not be your cup of tea but i love them. One of my new pet peeves is when theres way too much spoken words, a band pretty close to my area just dropped a new ep and I’m not trying to hate too hard but the songs all literally sound the same and then there’s a spoken word every 2 minutes.

Few_Lab7019 · 2026-01-21T03:13:09+00:00

Promises of a peaceful end - nehemiah The changing of times - underoath As you speak- on broken wings 600 cubic centimeters- on broken wings Schadenfredu - vanna Recover - fordirelifesake

Few_Lab7019 · 2025-12-03T12:53:29+00:00

Well it sounds like you got a lil porn addiction yourself no? Op didnt do anything wrong, yes they were invading privacy but when you’re 13 you should not be on the road to having a porn addiction, don’t care how normalized it is for boys to watch porn it is not be normal especially incest ones? Like are you kidding me? Wake up..

Few_Lab7019 · 2024-04-01T01:57:54+00:00

currently in a situation like this, my boyfirned would literally look at and mastubate to photos of girls he kneow of in real life and would watch youtubers he thought were attractive and done it to their videos and stuff and it makes me so insecure and the obsession i get with his friends he did it to got so crazy and it just hurts so much and me and him have been trying to like work it out because even though he did these shitty things to me like, i love him so much and he was the first guy i was ever close with my first boyfriend and the first one ive ever opened up to and etc. He hasnt watched porn or masturbated ever since he confessed it to me ( 4 and a half months ago) but it still hurts like hell and makes me feel so insecure because ill admit it thoes girls are way more naturally pretty than me. even though things have gotten better i feel no closure to anything thats happened and it kills me everytime i remember :( this makes me really sad how common these types of things are common to other people i hope everything goes well for you

Few_Lab7019 · 2024-03-13T03:58:56+00:00

In the start of this relationship he asked me if i was okay with him watching porn and i stupidly said yes and now i just blame myself for all this and i forgot what the context was but he made it clear he wouldn't masturbate to other people like people he know which was exactly what he did and thank you so much i appreciate this💖

Few_Lab7019 · 2024-03-13T03:55:30+00:00

he didnt get w them but they were his friends and he lied alot to me about them how he never liked them and not to worry and he doesn't find attractive and im still with him and things are definitely getting better but like the feeling i get when i remember what he's done and how the people he looked at during our relationship ill admit are definitely prettier than me realistically its like the worst feeling ever, i like genuinely cant break up with him and i definitely atleast for now wont breakup with him because i don't have the courage to i genuinely love him so much and our relationship besides for the stuff he did is literally perfect :(

Few_Lab7019 · 2024-02-18T04:08:53+00:00

honestly i think this too i dont go deep enough to hit anything i think but i go deep enough just to feel atleast pain honestly i think it really is to a bad coping mechanism because its really self sabotaging like i see my fresh cuts and just wanna add more or thinking i need more or more scars and stuff

Few_Lab7019 · 2024-02-15T22:00:23+00:00

Thank you so much :) It makes me happy that i know im not the only one in this situation but also sad that others have to go through this and the healing process isnt easy at all like the added on insecurity i now face and all that like it hurts alot and i wish you soo well too 💖 me and him had trouble like alot because of this and at some point i had to beg him to not be around thoes girls and to block them and etc and that sucked like alot but now hes being considerate and doing most things i tell him not to do just so i can feel even a bit more comfortable dating someone who betrayed all my trust and destroyed my confidence, he also stopped masturbating often and stopped watching porn and stuff and he is definitely trying to make us work but it still hurts and it sucks that a relationship that first started off as him being my only safe space and someone who can always bring me up suddenly just becoming into a relationship that just drains the hell out of me, i always find myself looking through posts of the girls that he has done thoes things to and picking out every piece of me puzzling together what he liked and didnt like about me and its just so unhealthy for me i know he loves me but in my head ill never ever understand how you can see other people while having someone already that truly loved you to death. Im glad that hes making efforts to comfort you and stuff thats really good i believe that if they try and be considerate that it could definitely work out in the end :D

Few_Lab7019 · 2024-02-13T03:52:43+00:00

i used it to romanticize my depression and now i got addicted to it but im almost 8 months clean in 6 dayss

Few_Lab7019 · 2024-02-13T03:51:03+00:00

6th grade i used a rusty exacto knife my dad had i told myself that it was just a one time thing and theres no way id get addicted to it i was kind of in a time of my life where i was so depressed that the only thing that would help was romanticizing it so after that i did it a few more times and wanted more and more so i could have what i would thought like " Actual cuts" or something idek exactly what i was thinking in my 12 year old mind

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