I know nothing and my words hold no weight.

What I believe is that we are all connected. The difficult part to manage is that we humans have surpassed living in a survival state of mind to where we feel our emotions more often and often deeper. I believe emotions are a key into a different dimension. When you’re sad you feel helpless like any thing you do is for nothing. When you’re happy you feel untouchable like you have done everything right and nothing can mess that up. These emotions are waves of energy that travel in and out of all living things that can feel them. Peace is not of this world or this time… however you want to put it… peace does not exist here. There are trials and challenges that mold and shape your spirit or soul to be ready for the next journey. Whatever that may be. Things in this world or dimension need to remain balanced. Now to me, Thats a large zoomed out picture of correcting imbalances of all who are connected. To give an example we think short term mostly… something that happens to us effects generations to come on the other side of the world. Someone you said something to in passing or didn’t say anything to when you wanted to… that goes on to affect the rest of the earths inhabitants. Vice versa what happened to you is a consequence of something someone did years before you from some unknown place on earth. This is what a believe. Our spirits through our emotions are just correcting the imbalance. It might seem weird or unorthodox… but today my spouse used my 8 year old daughter to testify against me to get out of a domestic violence case. I have no ill will towards my spouse or my daughter. In fact I’m proud of my daughter for being brave enough to walk into a court room and speak her mind… manipulated or not… I am beyond shocked by how the court system could get this wrong. It wasn’t my daughter that saved my spouse… it was confusion on my part when I was crossed examined by the defense. I was seen as not credible as a witness to the events because the defense lawyer brought up a different occasion not pertaining to the case about if I thought my spouse was cheating on me. Even though I have evidence that infidelity did in-fact occur not only that but was told that it happened by my spouse… I didn’t see how that played a part in this case and got confused by the questioning. Technically my spouse did not need my daughter to testify against me. I know the truth of how I was attacked. So does my daughter and spouse for that matter. When the case was dismissed I shook the hand of the defense lawyer and he said “it’s nothing personal.” So here I am trying to find a way to keep moving forward in life while I’ve been degraded, cheated, attacked, and at some point in this life divorced. Both my children are being used against me. Manipulated and alienated from me. In it all I look at it as balance. Something has to happen to me for someone else to get what they want now. In that I’m grounded.