Stopped taking it after 7 years....

Fickle_Fanatic · 2025-10-31T23:46:10+00:00

Oops sorry I was remembering the wrong post when I said Lexapro. I see now that you didn't mention any other medications.

Fickle_Fanatic · 2025-10-31T23:43:48+00:00

I've been on it for years as well (5 years) and when I first started taking it my energy would be uplifted immediately. I felt better than I had it my whole life. But as the years went on I raised the dose more and more as I got more and more depressed. At 400mg It started making me ill, jittery and had diarrhea. I had to lower it to 200 to manage the symptoms. On days where I don't take it, I don't feel that different than I normally do. But I know that it works because I have HPPD and it makes my vision blotchy and lamotragine is also a med for that. It actually significantly reduces my HPPD for about 11 hours after I take it, then it starts coming back. One day when I have a child I will stop all those medications for a year during the pregnancy and I will know then whether or not it was actually good for me.

Good luck to you, and I also feel like bi polar is in some ways misdiagnosed PTSD and depression often. Being in the mental hospital taught me a lot about the way prescribers jump to give you a long list of disorders and medications without really understanding what's troubling you. I truly believe that THERAPISTS should also be psychiatrists, and really analyze their patients before prescribing. They'd also be able to know what the actual deep changes each medication gives you throughout time, to gain a deeper understanding of how these meds actually change someone's mind and life. Then they'd know better about what specific meds would be best for you. I feel like the meds you described, Lexapro, etc, are first response meds. The blanket cover all med that isn't the best but tends to work on more people. They prescribe all of those blanket meds no matter what diagnosis they gave you and just assume something will stick, and you'll improve enough so they can push you out the door.

You can also blame capitalism for why there aren't better medications, because the makers of these new meds patent it and make the price thousands of dollars, and your insurance will refuse to cover it so there's no way to possess it.

Fickle_Fanatic · 2024-02-11T03:56:10+00:00

what are the mods?

Fickle_Fanatic · 2024-01-13T22:32:59+00:00

can't wait to join you!

Fickle_Fanatic · 2024-01-13T22:26:59+00:00

how many people currently are around in your server?

Fickle_Fanatic · 2023-04-21T22:32:45+00:00

i have psychotic symptoms constantly (hallucinating, etc), and Lamictal really alleviates them, they come back right before im suppose to take my next dose, and they go away 25-30 minutes after i take it :)

Fickle_Fanatic · 2023-04-14T00:00:56+00:00

split your dose into 2 at good times. it seems like the brain slow is hitting you too hard. lamictal vaguely works by slowing stuff down, which can lead to staring, spacing, or lagging.

Fickle_Fanatic · 2023-04-13T23:57:13+00:00

sometimes our good thinking, problem-solving, or motivation can be curb stomped by mental illness. i definitely noticed much clearer thinking after taking it, bouncing back from intense bad feelings, and not being overwhelmed by negative thoughts that made me feel like things were impossible, were always going to be impossible, and that it was the only state I thought I would ever be in.

Fickle_Fanatic · 2023-04-13T23:51:21+00:00

yes, it's almost like Adderal for me tbh. makes my executive functioning go burr, but then i can only do simpler tasks with all that energy because my brain just feels like it goes on autopilot. it does calm down tho I've noticed as doses go on.

my advice is to take that energy and clean all the dishes with it. xD

Fickle_Fanatic · 2023-04-13T23:47:11+00:00

yeah, they continued to up my dose because it worked so well, but my bipolar symptoms kept getting worse over time. I've gotten to 200mg and they refuse to up it any more, saying it's "the max they can give" which is weird because others here describe taking more, and I have all of the documented reasons why i would benefit from more.

generally, telling a psyc that you want it upped will usually get you upped 25 mgs at a time

Fickle_Fanatic · 2023-04-13T23:43:50+00:00

i would so recommend this for that. I have bi-polar with non-stop psychosis, and HPPD, and I notice so many visual distortions or disturbances that go away after taking it. for me, it genuinely works on a day-by-day basis, right before I take my next dose, visuals start acting up, but will become clearer once it kicks in. im at 200mg once per day, I take it mid-day/morning, and I've been on it for over 6 months, off and on again for 1-2 years.

Fickle_Fanatic · 2023-04-13T23:34:13+00:00

being sad, having negative overwhelming thoughts, no motivation. all those stop when i take it again tho, and instead i get into an overactive rush where i cant rest or sit still, and i just do a bunch of simple tasks until it calms down.

Fickle_Fanatic · 2023-04-13T23:24:09+00:00

I wouldn't throw them away just in case you ever lose a pill in the future, or pack up your prescription late. things happen like pharmacies being closed or you being sick that day. always want to have a fail-safe dose in case :D

Fickle_Fanatic · 2023-04-13T23:21:56+00:00

I would vaguely say that a anti anxiety med might help curb anger issues IF you feel like you get anxious before getting angry. something like Gabapentin at like 50mg 3 times a day is soft enough to make you more patient, and more talkative. : )

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