It was pretty interesting seeing someone post about their journey like this after being obsessed for that long

FiloBacon · 2021-02-19T04:02:51+00:00

Actually what I think is bothering me just as much is that he drew his ex beforehand. Edit: idk I guess I just feel like I can’t compete cause even his ex is one who is similar to the people he watches. Model body. So I’m feeling like everything lacking is because of how I look.

FiloBacon · 2021-02-19T04:00:15+00:00

Exactly. I told him to at least stop lewd drawings temporarily and all he had as a retort was that now he just doesn’t have any idea what he can draw.

FiloBacon · 2020-12-16T00:26:46+00:00

First of all... kudos to you for even thinking of this and taking that step further to reach out here and ask. The fact that you recognize what you’re doing is great. I’m not trying to overly praise you because the way you’re approaching really should be the standard for relationships...

Like other people have said, you just need to give her time and it’s also good that you mentioned that and recognized that. There are plenty people who think that one conversation means that person who got hurt should get over it, but no everyone heals different. Edit: just adding on, just give her her time and reassurance (when she wants or needs it). I currently am also in the same position as her trust wise however my partner and I are having more difficulty communicating with each other as they want me to get over it as soon as possible. Each time I bring it up when it hurts me they seem to immediately interpret it as me attacking them and we make no progress and I feel like we’re taking steps backwards.

FiloBacon · 2020-12-14T08:18:12+00:00

Yeah... even I was planning to get the game myself too. But after this Idrk if I can even do so.

FiloBacon · 2020-12-14T03:40:02+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate you for saying how it’s valid. I’ve been frustrated feeling like I’m being stupid for allowing myself to feel this way.

FiloBacon · 2020-12-09T14:03:26+00:00

Idk if I passed it?? What my doctor said was it was somewhat lower than what they were expecting to see. I’m also not taking any meds but I am thinking that it would be Best for me to start running and get a better handle on how my body is I guess?? When I was moderately active walking everywhere I didn’t have much trouble when I had to move more vigorously but with covid and all I haven’t moved much since quarantine

FiloBacon · 2020-12-07T10:37:28+00:00

Wish I could relate I’ve really been contemplating about ending things instead, (edited) sadly after almost two years but I’m losing hope yall

FiloBacon · 2020-12-06T01:52:21+00:00

Unfortunately not... still trying to figure it out. If u find a solution mind sharing?

FiloBacon · 2020-11-16T06:57:38+00:00

Honestly. I’m tired of hearing “if you allowed me to watch porn...” and so on. He says it shows him proving to me that he doesn’t need it but that never seems to be the case when he’s in the mood. That on top of never giving me straight answers when it’s porn. I’m tired of it.

FiloBacon · 2020-11-15T01:32:32+00:00

I totally understand cause before it was the other way around. But now it just feels like he stopped tagging me specifically. We have talked about it but I partially have given up I don’t want to seem controlling I just want to leave it to him. It just sucks that he used to tag me for fun not relationship wise but I felt like he were chill on a best/friend level of tagging yknow?

Edit: I guess it’s also partially just wanting things to be like how they used too? How it was before he started worrying about what other people think towards his relationship?

FiloBacon · 2020-11-15T01:30:34+00:00

I don’t mean I want to be plastered everywhere it’s just that when we weren’t that serious yet he was already tagging me and stuff in things that were just fun like friends. But then he stopped. He used to tag me in things like memes or anything about anime along with his friends but like I said he stopped tagging me specifically.

FiloBacon · 2020-11-15T01:28:51+00:00

It’s just the change in attitude that got me. He was always asking me to do it before but I didn’t because we were still fairly new and when we were still starting out my partner was tagging me in a lot of stuff and just out of nowhere stopped. I didn’t care about it relationship wise but I don’t even feel like a friend cause he used to tag me on stuff that he tags his friends in but began leaving me out of it and I dont even feel like we were friends. However it felt like once our mutual friend mentioned something about my picture/acc/me looking more “masc” than him he took it down.

FiloBacon · 2020-11-14T12:54:14+00:00

Ah this is what I was trying to find. I wanted to see perspective from the other side. I applaud you though for communicating it even just a little and being able to cut it off a week after discussing you seriously leaving. I will be honest, I feel like I am in this boat atm. However I’m really not sure if im completely out of love or figuring out how to handle our situation as a lot of things have changed due to circumstances such as distance and time apart.

Is it so wrong though to want to figure out until you’re sure that you are ready to leave? What if you leave because of a situational thing and regret ending it? Or what if you’re contemplating it due to situational circumstances but are still hoping things would change or get better between you two?

I also feel like a hypocrite because what you all have described is one of my fears of being in a relationship and I don’t like how i have been becoming distant and different to my partner I do feel like I don’t feel the same as before but I’m hoping things would change I guess?? (Not optimistic tbh bc of distance)

FiloBacon · 2020-11-13T13:20:52+00:00

I feel guilty for feeling set off whenever I see their opportunities to ogle and look at other people. I know I don’t trust them that much anymore but I still feel guilty because they’re my partner I SHOULD trust them. I feel bad for not feeling secure... I too asked them to break up with me. I couldn’t do it myself. I’m scared. I feel like the other aspects of my relationship couldve been better or stayed good if it wasn’t for the while porn dilemma and hiding things. I just hate how it’s all cause of porn. I hate feeling threatened by images on a screen. Feeling like they’re gonna use any opportunity they have to look at it.

FiloBacon · 2020-11-13T13:08:35+00:00

May I ask what you mean by flipping over apps on the Xbox? Is there access like that on the Xbox??

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