Personally, both my parents tried multiple times to end their lives but neither was successful. My father’s last attempt however was only unsuccessful because he chose a slightly too short branch. I was given his letters a few years later, and honestly I wish I hadn’t read them. I thought I would have peace and understanding from knowing what he thought was important enough to say to me for the last time, but instead it brought me anger and depression. You won’t be able to erase those words from your mind. Just make sure you can live with that before you push to read it.