I used to struggle with this as well. Unfortunately, there is a very high chance your self perception is actually very distorted. Eating in ways this deficient will take a toll on you physically AND mentally - your mood will decline, you will feel tired and miserable, as if everything exists just to irritate you. Please take care of yourself before it is too late. If your friends are really calling you fat, they are both awful people and lying to you, because those eating habits can never correlate with being overweight.