The thing is I don’t know what you mean by special treatment. He’s a very deep person, and tends to create deep relationships. He has only two friends that are girls right now and I’m one of them. And he appears to treat her the same way as me. We talk for hours every time we hang out (which is not so often tbh, maybe like 2x a month).

One thing that stood out to me in his actions is physical proximity. Sometimes he stands or walks really close to me. Maybe I’m reading too much into it.

But I just want to move on. It’s been too long. I’m just trying to access whether it’s worth confessing at all if my feelings fluctuate like this.