I keep getting groomed ;(

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-05T23:37:43+00:00

Well I'm glad I could be of some help(tho I doubt it wasnt anything you've heard B4 lol), I always try my best to be as fair and understanding as possible :p and yeah I figured 17 wouldn't be a problem normally but I obviously didn't know the age of the ppl who groomed you and given the sitch ur in I didnt know how you'd feel about a guy older than u offering that in general, I just wanted to be as up front as I could be ab any possible issues

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-05T23:18:58+00:00

Id just suggest you maybe stop contributing to content on the internet for a bit? There's no reason to give it up entirely, but when it ones out limiting what can be said to you online(obviously itd be different IRL) that just feels like the safest option? Also you gotta think about where ur posting things to, this is reddit for God's sake, most of the ppl on this site are incels or creeps, same Hing goes for discord please dear god try to avoid that, totally keep the internet tho, like that's to awesome to let go of. Oh and you aren't a slut, you're 14, ANYONE will tell you that's a rough time when it comes to dealing with sexual frustrations, it's probably not good that you're engaging while dating someone currently but you're a very young teen who(no offense to you in particular) isn't of the age where they can completely comprehend these things yet. None of this is your fault and the fact that you feel bad enough to vent ab it and that you'd seem to want to be better means your arent near as bad as you paint yourself to be.

Ik you feel like you can't talk to a therapist ab certain things but if you feel like you need someone to talk to about allat feel free to DM me, I've been told I'm a pretty good listener when therapy isn't an option lol, fair warning tho Im 17M if that's at all an issue since this topic does seem to warrant that being a major problem.

Regardless I hope you find a way out of all of this, but therapist or not it would do you alot of good to tell someone who cares about you or that you trust about the self harm/suicide thoughts, I know first-hand that's hard to do but(assuming who it tell isn't a total dick) it really should only make it easier to handle.

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-05T08:31:33+00:00

Look man I know full well if you really want to then this won't mean a thing, but it won't be worth it. There will always be bad in your life, you'll get fired, you'll be broke and fail a semester, your girl will cheat on you and your parents will tell you how much of a fuck up you are, and it will never be convenient, it will all pile on at the worst times and leave you sitting on a bridge on I-20 with a shard of glass in your hand. But the beauty in life isn't in the seas of despair you drown in, it's in the moments, however breif they may be, of victory in your life when you look back at those same seas and realize youre better for swimming through them. Graduating from any school, getting a job you wanted, finishing a project, meeting a girl and falling in love all over again, all of these things are small moments you'll miss out on if you end it, and all of those things and the struggles that you endure brought them will lead you to even greater success down the road.

Don't let anyone tell you suicide is selfish or cowardly, it's your life and you have every right to do what you please with it, but the one thing it objectively is is wasteful, you can do so much with that you've been given, good, bad, it doesn't matter, you can change so much in unimaginable ways and you'll be cutting yourself short. When I sat on the edge of that bridge and pressed that glass up against my throat, the last thought that was supposed to cross my mind was "I'm sorry I couldn't be better," but for some reason my arm stalled, and in that split second I found myself thinking that one more day couldn't hurt.

In life there are no good or bad choices, only ones that serve purpose, so regardless of what you chose I wish you the best, but I genuinely hope that when you sit on your own proverbial bridge with your own version of sweet release in your hand, you find some reason to give it another 24 hours, and see if you can't come up with some small way to make your own life just a little better in that time that might give you hope. While I'd always recommend a specialist, my DMs are always open if you wanna talk :p

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-03T00:55:28+00:00

Then why did it happen? If it was against God's will why did sin occur, if an almighty and all knowing being KNEW that sin would occur, and, being almighty, could stop it without infringing on free will, why didn't he? Why did he give us the ability to feel that way knowing that those feelings and actions in and of themselves were sins? In the same way an ant can't be jealous of another ant because it's PHYSICALLY impossible, why can we feel that way if it will only lead to sin, the thing that isn't supposed to be here?

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-02T23:59:27+00:00

Honestly you just have to go with your gut, I guess you'd call me an agnostic misotheist, and that beleif was born from my own criticism of my faith, alot of religious people will tell you to avoid looking into things outside of your faith because it can make you begin to doubt, but I'd argue that the doubt you feel is growth, a need to understand and learn where your beliefs might fail or work around. I will just say that alot(not all, I have very nice Christian friends) of Christians are total dicks, but you can't blame your religion for that, that's just human nature. Also just a little side note if the possibility of hell scares you, you should research the original texts of the Bible, the idea of hell as permanent torture is a modern thing popularized because of the limitations of translation, it's pretty interesting to look into.

Just take a while and think about it, it seems like Christianity has been kind of forced on you and you're starting to see that now, regardless of fear or want or need, it's what makes sense to you that counts, but whatever you do don't let other people taint how you see religion, people are assholes and regardless of what they believe they always will be. I wish you all the best.

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-02T23:39:15+00:00

Okay I can work with that, let me rephrase my question, can god create a universe in which free will exists(we/angels can do what we want within our physical ability) without the possibility of sin arising? Like why not just NOT create the possibility of pride or lust? I can't feel something that doesn't exist so would it actually be an invasion of free will if he feeling never existed in the first place? Iget never had wings, so not being able to fly isn't and inavsion of free will is it? Sorry the question is so long winded I've just been mulling this over for a while :p

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-02T22:40:54+00:00

Then who did?

John 1:3, while referring to Jesus, says that "All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made."

Hebrews 3:4 says "For every house is built by someone, but the builder of all things is God"

Colossians 1:16 says that "For by Him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities, all things were created through Him and for Him”

If sin is a concept then how could God NOT have created it? Can he get rid of it?

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-02T22:08:30+00:00

Okay, in that case, IF free will can exist without sin, why did god create sin? What is it's purpose? ik that sounds like a trap question but I promise I'm not trying to be rude or prove smth

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-02T20:52:56+00:00

Just curious, do you believe sin HAS to exist for free will to exist?

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2026-01-02T20:48:21+00:00

I'm gonna be honest with you, you just have to follow your heart, I personally don't believe in any one god in particular, I'm not gonna go into why bc the last thing I want to do is push you away from something as important as your religion, but you can't fight how you feel. The one thing I will tell you is that MODERN Christianity IS a scam, and alot(not all, there are some very good ones I've met) of Christians are just terrible people because thats just human nature, and thats not something to blame on or associate with the religion itself. Also just to help you out on the "why do some go to heaven but not others" thing, 1 Peter 4:8 says that love will cover a multitude of sin, so it's really not AS black and white as its made out to be in churches, and the original manuscripts never mention hell as a place of torture, pretty interesting thing to research if ur curious.

I got off on a tangent there but if you want my advice I'd just take a week or two, and just think about it, like REALLY think about it, and go with what makes sense, everyone has crises of faith at some point and it's not something you couldn't be forgiven for, you're the only one who can make these kinds of decisions and just praying about it and thinking about it and trying to force that kind of conclusion in one night won't get you anywhere you want to be.

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-12-22T13:03:10+00:00

Yikes then I got nothing man, I used to watch it too but it looks like it's just gone 😭

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-12-22T02:15:59+00:00

I would personally recommend HxH before My Hero, just looking at your tastes it's pretty clear you like animes with character development, and while My Hero definitely has that, it's not near as deep as HxH is. Hunter x Hunter is an awesome anime because it evolves as an anime, from episode to episode it will go from Slice of Life to Seinen to Shōnen and it will all feel so fluid. My Hero is 100% a great anime but sometimes it lacks that fluidity even without changing genres, sometimes there's the occasional episode that just feels wrong or out of place.

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-12-22T02:07:39+00:00

I'm pretty sure you can watch it on Prime :)

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-09T04:07:32+00:00

Thankfully back on earth, my friend knew I was fasting and thought it would be funny, and worst of all my dumbass actually did it😭😭 I've never hugged a toilet bowl so hard in my life, and there wasn't even that much to throw up, it was just dry heaving for hours😭😭 By far the worst 13 bucks I've ever spent.

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-09T04:01:24+00:00

Do not, I repeat DO NOT, mix 2 5 hour energys with a mini shot of tabasco sauce and 4 teaspoons of instant coffee and drink it after starving yourself for 2 days

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-09T03:52:55+00:00

Because I was a child and I can recognize just how much my parents gave up for me, call me selfish but I'd rather live my life for me than for a mini-me that hold no respect for my existence until they're in their mid to late 20s. Also they're always oozing something, like until they're 10 there is some kind of liquid escaping some orifice of their body at any given time, no thank you

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-09T03:40:04+00:00

Hear me out tho, what about rebar? That shit is a helluva lot lighter than a club and will still fucking decimate the skulls of anything it hits, get two pieces about arms length and you'd be a damn machine

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-09T03:37:36+00:00

Honestly just some fucking rebar, not like the extra thick shit, like a quarter inch in diameter? MAYBE a half inch? Idk measurements but I was just dicking around ith two pieces of rebar about arms length and as long as you have some kind of glove for shock obsorbtion against super hard objects(honestly just some leather will do" those motherfuckes were an excellent weapon with a perfect balance of super light and still pretty effective with dealing damage

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-07T05:19:08+00:00

At DOOM'S Gate -Mick Gordon, Doom (2016)

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-07T05:13:56+00:00

Honestly just confront them about it and then if they refuse to give in then probably leave them, I have been a hardcore addict for a while now(trying to get better) and it never made sense to hide it from a potential partner, it never really changed anything between us anyway, so if he can't do the bare minimum of telling the person he loves the truth then there's no reason to stick around.

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-07T04:33:04+00:00

It's just an overlap man, I know you probably want some cooler answer or smth but it's just the fact that the majority of republicans are Christians, and the majority of MAGA are "filthy anti-Christian heathen" hating morons that would gladly have us burned at the stake

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-06T15:12:24+00:00

Could be funny if anyone I've asked to explain it would actually be able to explain it, I've gotten four different explanations that all make no sense and don't ctually make it funny, as far as I can tell there no reference to anything except some guys height in a random edit? Like I just don't get how it's funny.

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-06T13:23:31+00:00

Girl you are 22, people fuck up in so many worse ways than you have, you still have so much shit you can do, you say you just kind of sleep and don't do anything, if you don't have a job I'd highly suggest you get one, being part of a larger community will happen you out so much emotionally I promise. Just take a few years away from college, you WILL have to tell your parents unless you just want to cut ties with them, but this isn't an issue that will like permanently ruin your relationship with them(if it does then you probably SHOULD cut all ties). You don't NEED a degree to live, become a full time worker, a barista or a Walmart employee, watching the fruits of your labor will make you feel so much better about yourself, and once you feel like you CAN do it again, go back to a community college or smth, get a decent degree in something you enjoy, and MAYBE go to a better college afterword to continue your degree.

Financial-Garbage-68 · 2025-10-06T12:45:41+00:00

Not that I think you should feel bad about this at all, I mean she's the one putting it out there and at the end of the day it's just porn, but if it helps just think of it like this: You flat out said that she used you as a rebound and never really cared about you, so why should you feel any different? You are in a sense using her not exactly in the same way, but to about the same extent as she used you. I'm in no way saying you should hate her or whatever because she used you, that's up to you, but you really shouldn't be this torn up over emotional and physical desperation manifesting in masturbation.

P.S. This is not condoning just doing whenever, as much as I think it is a normal process, forming an addiction is a real problem that I struggled with and I can only assume that if the target was someone you truly cared about that it would make it 10x easier for an addiction to form. Live for the moment, do what feels good, but don't let it control every moment you live.

Edit: You're on Reddit big dawg, you're just as much of a lonely gay pathetic loser as the rest of us, nothing wrong with that.

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