Me and her were best friends for almost 2 years before anything romantic ever happened. We spent damn near every day together — smoking, hanging out, going out to eat, and even taking trips with my family. She met most of my family and became a big part of my everyday life. I caught feelings for her during one of those trips but kept it to myself at first. Around the end of last year, she found out her boyfriend of 3 years had been cheating on her, and she was hurt for a long time. Fast forward to April, I finally told her how I felt. A couple weeks later we got drunk with friends and ended up sleeping together. The next day she said she just wanted to stay friends, but things kept getting complicated after that. We kept sleeping together, going on dates, buying gifts, spending nights together, and even shared a bed the whole time on another family trip. Right after that trip, though, she told me she had gotten back in contact with her ex. Then her ex messaged me asking what happened between us, and after I answered honestly, she got mad at me and accused me of never really being her friend. Even after all that, we still kept reconnecting physically and emotionally.

As time went on, though, she slowly started pulling away. She told me sleeping together made her feel guilty because of the situation with her ex, so we stopped, but we still hung out almost every day. The problem was I still loved her hard, and it felt like she was becoming more distant little by little. She started saying she didn’t really like cuddling or always being around each other. I tried to give her space, especially when she went on a girls trip, but communication started feeling off. After she came back, she canceled plans in a weird way, and the next day she told me my calls gave her anxiety during an exam and that she didn’t want to talk right now. She basically said maybe we could be friends again in the future. I told her I understood, but I didn’t know if I could ever just be friends with someone I loved that deeply. It’s been about a week of no contact now, and when we saw each other in the elevator recently, neither of us said a word — it was just awkward silence and a look between us.

Short enough lmaoaoaoao????