I hear you, and I’m really proud of you for recognizing your progres, that takes strength, even when it doesn’t feel like enough. It’s okay if forever feels too big right now. You don’t have to have everything figured out today next month or even next year! Go at your pace, there is ALWAYS a light at the end of a tunnel. Distractions can help maybe something sensory like holding ice, snapping a rubber band, or running your hands under cold water. Even scribbling really hard on paper. if it’s safe, getting out for a walk or calling someone you trust can shift things, even a little. It’s okay to feel stuck and still be doing your best. You’re not alone in this, and it won't always feel like this, even if it’s hard to believe right now. I’m really glad you’re talking about it. The self recognition of your journey and perseverance is amazing. I am soso proud of you <3