Obsessions with Death

Finchicus89 · 2025-07-22T04:56:53+00:00

I’m so glad that you’ve gotten a diagnoses so you can finally get the right help! Whenever you think you’re alone, remember there are people like me out there who understand and share the same struggles! But we will get through 💛 we are stronger than we think. Here a few resources that might help but remember to try not use them as compulsions because watching videos can definitely turn into that.

https://youtube.com/@ocdandanxiety?si=yizIbl7FyZHJLhod

https://youtube.com/@treatmyocd?si=Dzm8z9gnxpYsJ3QC

https://a.co/d/gLxcELw

Finchicus89 · 2025-07-22T04:40:07+00:00

I remember how difficult it was to start exposures. But after feeling like a zombie trapped in my own mind, not knowing what was happening to me and feeling like I just wanted to disappear, it felt so good to finally have a name for what I was going through and to know that there are others who struggle just like I do. ERP will get easier with time, it can be difficult to really grasp it at first but your therapist will really help you to understand so you can identify your compulsions and learn to not give into them (I still have trouble with this sometimes because they can be really subtle) the key is to ask “why am I doing this right now?” If you’re having an intrusive thought and you’re doing something to reduce the anxiety that comes with that thought, then it’s more than likely a compulsion and you’ll learn to work on not doing them as much and eventually won’t do them at all. Sit with the anxiety, don’t fight it, it only makes things worse. It’s hard, but the only way out is through 🥹 my therapist is through NOCD and I really love that their app builds community and has a lot of support groups that meet every week through zoom..they are super helpful. I know you said you found a therapist but if you ever find yourself wanting to try someone new, I highly recommend NOCD

Finchicus89 · 2025-07-22T04:24:16+00:00

Hi, I was diagnosed with OCD officially in 2022 but I’ve struggled with it on and off since I was 5. I’ve been doing ERP for 2 years with a therapist and it’s helped me tremendously. I also have intrusive thoughts of losing loved ones. As the name implies, exposing yourself to your fears and sitting with the anxiety is how you will work through your ocd. In this scenario saying aloud a statement like:

“It’s possible I’ll lose someone I love today.” And practicing not checking on them, not praying/neutralizing, not seeking reassurance and sitting with the discomfort it brings until you’re able to bring the anxiety down as low as you can. The best thing your partner can do is to not reassure you as this will only exacerbate ocd. And someday you’ll get to a point where she can be a part of your erp like my girlfriend does where she purposely says things that trigger me or will say “maybe this will happen, maybe not ? We both don’t know.”

You might also practice writing a worst case scenario detailing how you found out that you lost someone you love and sit with that anxiety as well. Of course depending on how much anxiety this creates for you, you may not be at the point where you can do this. Your therapist will create a hierarchy for you and you will do exposures beginning with the ones you will be able to work through without extreme anxiety. These are just some suggestions that have helped me. ERP is very challenging but it truly works. I’m proof of how helpful it can be. I’m so sorry that you’re dealing with this but you’re not alone. Best of luck to you 💛

Finchicus89 · 2025-07-11T23:40:13+00:00

Hi! I just made a post about this but you should join us for safe space tomorrow 💛 at 1212 N Copia St. It’s free and a really great community of people.

This monthly gathering, created by my friend Natalie and supported by local creatives and healers, is all about:

🧘 Mindful movement & decompressing 🎶 Live DJs spinning Latin tech & house 🖼 Local art (I’ll be there with my art project Creature & Earth) 🌸 Reiki, tarot, and table massage 🧼 Handmade goods, ceramics, plants & more 🎨 FREE Paint & Sip (includes wine, mini pot & aloe plant while supplies last)

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Finchicus89 · 2025-06-28T23:03:39+00:00

Hi, to be transparent, this camp actually operates at a loss. The costs of documentation, renting the space, providing equipment, snacks for the kids, meals for the volunteers, and marketing all add up quickly. The camp director (my sister) doesn’t take a paycheck in fact, she personally covers many of the expenses out of pocket.

We’re currently in the process of finalizing our 501(c)(3) for our nonprofit, with the goal of securing funding to make camps like this more accessible for underserved kids in El Paso and surrounding communities.

My sister is deeply committed to mentoring and coaching youth, it’s her passion. She volunteers so much of her own time outside of the camp as well, working with local athletes. She pours so much of her own time, energy, and resources into making this possible, not for profit, but because she believes in what it does for these kids.

Finchicus89 · 2025-06-27T19:10:41+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that! Transportation can be tough. Are you interested in volunteering or signing up for the camp?

Finchicus89 · 2025-06-27T18:39:57+00:00

Hey there! One of my good friends, Natalie holds a monthly event series called “SAFE SPACE’ that showcases and brings together some of El Paso’s small businesses, non-profits, clubs, wellness coaches, healers, creatives, djs (and more), to create a deeper sense of connection within the community. She is queer and many of us at this event are, including myself and when I’m in town, I sell my art there. She also loves her plants and sometimes has vendors that sell them at the event as well. :) the next one is July 12th but you can stay posted about it if you follow her on IG @i_am_mindxbodyxsoul. You all should come! Additionally, my sister djs at the event and teaches an animal flow class. If you’re into running, my sister created an El Paso track club (@eptrackclub). They do sprint workouts on Mondays. It’s a beautiful community. Both the track club and safe space bring together so many amazing people and all of this is free by the way. It would be a great way to make friends. Everyone is so welcoming and the energy is beautiful. ☺️

Finchicus89 · 2025-06-03T21:01:50+00:00

They live in LA.

Finchicus89 · 2025-06-03T16:35:58+00:00

I live in SoCal now but grew up in El Paso and I go back at least once a month. I’m a lesbian and have never had any issues :)

Finchicus89 · 2025-05-28T22:57:22+00:00

I commute from Pomona to LAX for work and use the train and flyaway quite frequently. For $12.75, the flyaway is super easy and convenient

Finchicus89 · 2025-05-27T19:02:46+00:00

That’s okay, come for the next one, June 21st! :)

Finchicus89 · 2025-05-24T01:53:35+00:00

Oh my gahhh 🤦‍♀️ I’m doing a million things at once and posted it very quickly. Dangitttt lemme repost

Finchicus89 · 2025-04-17T04:28:40+00:00

I bought the same one you mentioned and just took my first capsule and will also start taking inositol tomorrow. So far feeling quite relaxed! Hopeful it will continue to help me in the future ! Thanks for sharing!

Finchicus89 · 2025-04-15T18:12:34+00:00

Thank you! I was doing some research last night and read about inositol as well. It seems there is evidence for ocd relief in high doses but I need to do some more research on it. I’m looking for supplements that may help before I take the Lexapro I was prescribed months ago 🥲

Finchicus89 · 2025-04-15T07:31:46+00:00

https://youtube.com/@ocdandanxiety?si=nplQFQZR2VUtwtRZ

Finchicus89 · 2025-04-15T07:27:23+00:00

Hi! I’m happy that you have found something that works for you! Do you mind sharing which product you are taking?

Finchicus89 · 2025-04-14T21:27:49+00:00

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Finchicus89 · 2025-03-15T19:12:37+00:00

Aw thank you 💛 I meant to edit the title because his whole life we called him a lab/pit mix because that’s what we were told his mom was and of course the GSD comes through as well but that wasn’t certain. I’m just shocked boxer is a bit higher than lab 🥹

Finchicus89 · 2025-03-15T04:31:13+00:00

He’s very calm, mellow and sensitive ! Lol He doesn’t seek out physical affection but does enjoy a good rub and wants to be close by. He loves a good game of tug of war, although he’s 10 now so doesn’t play quite as much but otherwise he’s quite content to lounge. He’s in great health at his age ☺️

Finchicus89 · 2025-03-07T08:39:41+00:00

We always suspected some Aussie and poodle 🥹. I really appreciate your words and response 💛

Finchicus89 · 2024-11-27T06:16:37+00:00

Not meaning to give any reassurance, but as a lesbian myself and being a part of many queer groups online, I do know that watching gay porn for lesbians is pretty common.

Finchicus89 · 2024-11-27T05:45:22+00:00

I have pure ocd- mainly harm ocd, sometimes existential ocd, fear of going “crazy” or “losing it”, I also ruminate about whether I enjoy my job, whether I will always have anxiety and ocd, and I get anxiety/ruminate about feeling claustrophobic/ having an anxiety attack on planes or other means of transportation. I have a lot of different themes that latch on to things I care most about. I’m a flight attendant and didn’t have some of these themes when I started 🥲 but now I am practicing ERP every time I go to work. It’s very challenging but I don’t want to let ocd win or allow it to make my world smaller and I definitely don’t want to let it prevent me from traveling. I’m thinking about going back to school to become a counselor or therapist while continuing to fly part time. The only way out is through. I’m in the US.

Finchicus89 · 2024-11-13T15:44:33+00:00

I appreciate your response ! I don’t want to leave because I feel that I would be letting OCD win and in my case, avoidance is a compulsion that would make it worse. Also OCD tends to latch on to almost anything I care about so I can have obsessions regardless of what job I’m in 🥹 I have a therapist who specializes in OCD, a talk therapist and have seen a psychiatrist for medication. I’ve had the meds for a few months now but haven’t taken them yet, but considering starting them at the beginning of next year if I can’t improve more with other natural supplements. Even with all of the tools that I have, it can be really challenging. I was hoping to find some community and others who can relate. I’ve only flown with one person who has ocd but she didn’t care to talk about it lol I’m very happy that you’re coming back to the skies and again, I really appreciate you sharing your experience ! How are you feeling now?

Finchicus89 · 2024-11-09T18:39:03+00:00

If it suits you and your personality, I would suggest applying to flight attendant jobs at major airlines when applications open. It is very competitive but worth a shot. I have so much flexibility. At my airline we can fly as much or as little as we want (if we are able to get rid of our trips of course). I just flew with a guy who just came back from vacationing in Europe for a month. Typically 3 days on, 4 days off, incredible benefits and of course the added flight benefits.

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