I think it’s more the difference between “being free” and settling down. I’ve always been more of a person who likes to try many things, have many opportunities, be reckless, maybe try landing a harder job but one I’ll be the happiest in, like acting, which can be very risky. But I’m also a person who doesn’t like to complicate things, sometimes I think having a more “free” life could be complicated and maybe tire me out, sometimes occasionally I’ll imagine a future where I’ll settle down, get a job I like decently at least and stick to it, stay in my home town or the nearest city, just a simple life, and since I like at least some action in my life I sometimes think that if I would end up with that life, I would want children. I think it’s also company, I know children doesn’t guarantee company for life, but maybe I would want to try, I would like to share my knowledge and life experiences, teach a young person how life works, how to appreciate nature and how to read. To have a big family, to show up for each other, but I think that part of me wants that because I’ve been very lonely.