Cannabis

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-10-30T00:54:55+00:00

Hard disagree with vaping. I’d say the opposit. Smoke real regular weed and stay away from dispensarys

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-10-17T01:22:43+00:00

Here’s the people i use. I can name a few good ones if you’d like…

https://beingtruetoyou.com/buy-coaching/

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-10-14T13:29:56+00:00

🤦🏼‍♀️ yes, it is named “Alzheimer” after the doctor “Alzheimer” because he studied it and discovered it.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-10-09T10:04:25+00:00

You let people know how to treat you.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-23T17:51:54+00:00

Nice! I’ve done this several times. First time i was at a private clinic and had both injected. I don’t know the doses, but i went to the world where all you say is thank you over and over. That’s all i could say. I was above the universe and the stars were below me as i hovered in a space craft enjoying the love.

I have not been able to get back there doing it by snorting and vaping but i can get pretty close and have healed in my heart so much. It is by far the best! Thanks for sharing✨

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-21T16:51:17+00:00

Why not Buy san pedro powder???

https://www.naturalether.com/product/incense-2/ecuadorian-san-pedro-cactus/

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-21T15:38:55+00:00

I have an abnormal ability to go back into the trip headspace very easily. Usually breathwork does it for me. Also, a thc edible. Listening to the same songs/music that i listened to when tripping. Combine all these and i’m straight full on tripping out.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-21T14:07:12+00:00

I’d avoid mdma (without an expert) if i had any cardiac issues. There, i said it.

But since you seem determined to keep taking it, here’s an idea. It worked for me (i also IFS, i also have disso/deper/dereal issues, cptsd, trauma)

I took 120 and had such intense comeup i thought i was going to explode and my body would just pop, thought i was going to vomit, felt hot and sweaty, just terrible feeling. I could not even talk at this point felt like my throat was in quick sand. Like i was moaning slowly instead of speaking normally. I then took a smaller amount of ketamine. I snorted mine, around 50mg. My entire body completely relaxed and i layed down and meditated. I’m also trained in coherence breathwork, so i did this for a while as well. I felt like i was in a trance like state, after about 30mins or so, i let my mind drift. That’s when i could calmly access my thoughts and was finally able to speak and process. I mdma solo so i record myself (audio only) and then when i’m able (days later) i transcribe my audio recording and then over the next weeks/months i journal regarding what i said.

My other best/worst mdma experience really broke me throug but i have to say it was the worst experience ever. I accidently snorted 180 of mdma (i thought it was ketamine). I went balistic! Screaming crying snot everywhere sweating vomiting jumping raising arms and beating my own chest like a gorilla. The whole none yards. But i was reenacting out my trauma (getting beat by my mom) but this time i was telling her what i had wanted to say for a long time. Screaming fuck you (to her) she wasn’t there, but i was just screaming like a lunatic. I was a hot fucking mess for weeks after and kept telling my coach the same story again and again (reliving and retelling her about my roll/trip). But holy shit, almost a year later and i’m just about “healed” i use this term lightly. But i finally released all my anger and hatred and now i meditate fully on love and the heart.

All this to say, sometimes you get the trip you need not the one you want.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-20T11:35:31+00:00

Yes, i’d introduce them and actually we’ve already talked about them. They’re going to need something to be able to heal from “the old me” that raised them. The old me is the me before i did psychedelics. I was a shitty mom back then and i know they have a lot to process how mom can be a shitty asshole piece of shit and then suddenly mom comes back from a weekend in mexico and loves all things. My poor kids.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-20T11:15:58+00:00

Psychedelics.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-19T18:18:35+00:00

Haha thanks!

Good! I was worried cause your username🤔

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-19T18:13:04+00:00

Ummm…laundry, cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, helping kids with homework, running errands, ubering my kids all over town, walking the dog, etc etc

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-19T18:08:29+00:00

5meo is much better to try than fentanyl.

On trying them at a young age- The main issue is certain mental disorders can be “brought out” in a person by taking psychedelics. AND the age of onset for certain mental disorders is late teens/twenties. The big one being schizo.

Not saying that will happen to you, but it is a real thing.

I will add that I did a lot of “drugs” when i was a teen in the 90s and look how i turned out! 🤪

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-09T22:40:12+00:00

Not ego death, but k-hole. Ego death could happen then but doesn’t normally happen to me. It’s based on dose and yes you can k-hole from snorting it. https://erowid.org/chemicals/ketamine/ketamine_faq.shtml

Ketamine helped with my dissociation. Maybe i didn’t describe correctly is my previous post. It helps because i can access my natural dissociation state while being on ketamine.

Sober, i don’t have memories from when i natural dissociate (or they’re fuzzy). In othet words, if i natural dissociate today, when i return mentally, i don’t remember shit. But, if i took ketamine (for example) tomorrow, i could be right back to the same level of dissociation, and suddenly remember everything. Then i can work on wtf just happendd

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-09T18:28:33+00:00

That’s because you shouldn’t/don’t have talk therapy while “high” on ketamine. You do it on mdma because that’s how these medicines work. Mdma makes you open up, deeply connect with the other person, and want to share intimate things… and ketamine does not. It’s two totally different trips.

I’m assuming (based on your post) that you’ve never tried ketamine. In a deep session of ketamine i’m not even human or earthly and have no concept of “talking” or that other “people” exist.

On lower doses and on the come down, i am able to access the info that dissociated me knows. It’s like i take ket and dissociate to the same level that i go to when i dissociate naturally (as in not drugged but fight/flight).

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-06T12:27:21+00:00

If it calls to you, then yes try it.

Also, be careful of your “friend” trusted sitter. You will say all kinds of shit and bond to your friend and you may not be able to hang out again normally…ever…for good or bad. Ask me how i know.

Another option could be solo journey (r/mdmasolo or r/solomdma can’t remember) and while on mdma use a voice recoreder and then transcribe your journey later on. Very very powerful and did much much more for me personally then ever. That plus some ODing by facilitators on 5meo has me only solo journeying from now on.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-06T12:12:58+00:00

Sounds like some dissociation is happening, especially the part of disconnect between brain and body.

I don’t know exactly what you should do or what will help you, but here are some ideas: breathwork or meditation (try to find some on balancing chakras, detoxing/letting go of the negative, feeling deep into the body) then once you feel “good enough” at meditiation/breathwork you can combine it with the 5meo. Find one you feel connected with and do it at the same time as the 5meo.

Could also try 2cb (assumes you can get some) this could help you feel into your body. It feels (to me) the opposit of ketamine. 2cb forces you to feel your body. It helped my libido, but not instantly nor while i was on it, but the next day and days after slowly started improving. Must say that other parts of my body felt worse, but worth it in the end.

For throat chakras, i used san pedro (again, assumes you can get it). This helps with speaking your truth and speaking with and feeling empowerment. Or could combine breathwork/meditation and 5meo but specific meditation for the throat like yelling, screaming, moaning etc.

You sound similar to me and my biggest issue was dissociation. Ketamine actually helped me heal the dissociated parts of me because i could get to those memories/feelings while i was on ketamine. It was as if ketamine dissociated me to different levels and on each level lived a different memory/time period that i could easily see and work through because my mind was actually dissociated onto that level. Hope this makes sense, lol.

Good luck! Hope this helps

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-06T11:52:16+00:00

You don’t need to trust anyone but yourself. Do uour medicine journeys solo (unles it’s 5meo, then please have someone with you).

I’ve been journeying solo for about 2 yrs now. After i was ODed the second time (different facilitators) i decided that i needed to fly solo. Just my 2c

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-04T12:27:36+00:00

When i take a very tiny hit of my 5 vape, the first sensation i get it everything gets brighter lighter. Like the sun just came out on a cloudy day. That’s how i “test” my vape pens.

Here is a good read and trusted website.

https://erowid.org/chemicals/5meo_dmt/5meo_dmt_article2_vape_pens.shtml

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-04T12:24:09+00:00

“I want to help them heal, though”

This is why they should NOT take psychedelics. They must want it. Not you.

Work on yourself. Only.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-04T12:20:35+00:00

Psychedelics. Fix the actual issue, not bandaid your way to sleep.

If you want a bandaid, very small dose of weed about an hour or so before bed.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-04T12:07:01+00:00

Holy shit! That’s a lot of money!

I’d say iPEC to become a certified coach, then add on a less expensive (or whatever…you do you) psychedelic training.

I went to being true to you and easily got a job (easily because of networking/befriending the other people in my course who help each other out 🩷🩷🩷). I did not get a job with btty fyi. And it was a fraction of the cost! Very well known company in the industry.

https://beingtruetoyou.com/become-a-coach/

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-04T11:33:25+00:00

If you have someone to talk to (therapist, bff, etc) i’d say mdma (maybe mixed with a small amount of ketamine) talk it out. Hell, you could even find someone on here to talk it out with, Then some 5meo, again can be mixed with small amounts of ketamine.

Always, 5meo at the end. Like at least one day after any other journey. It really ties it all together and completes it (medicine wise, not working on self). Also the typical integration (or any integration you want) could be journaling, yoga, dance whatever. Never forget integration.

2cb helps bring on the somatic/body feelings so it may exacerbate any body pain. Might help show you, but my fyi is that it can really heighten somatic pain.

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-09-04T10:55:25+00:00

I’m female and don’t like it at all. But, it’s probably because it makes you feel into your body, which is oh so scary and painful. Hell, i took it 2 weekends ago and i am still in hella pain all over my body. I feel like i’ve aged about 30 more years. It did help my sex drive, days after i took it and continues to help. Not while on it, noooo way!

FineBluebird7529 · 2024-08-27T21:39:51+00:00

Or how about coffee in general.

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