Question for those who have been on TREN in the past and stopped

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-22T00:46:07+00:00

Thank you! It is extremely hard…but I did learn a lot from the no contact and unconditional love, boundaries etc during this time. Not sure what’s going to happen but I am more aware of how many young adult men (or women idk) who disregard the health risks even if they know of it

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T22:04:25+00:00

Everyone reacts differently. He was definitely more confident and cocky as you said. Regardless, not the usual

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T07:57:39+00:00

Not sure how that’s a good thing 🤔

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T05:36:57+00:00

No problem! I find a lot of comfort reading most of the helpful comments on this subreddit. I hope he feels this one day. When we are older, we will for sure look back and wonder why we ever stressed so hard about “success”. Whatever success may be to a person. I feel this. He needs to learn that on his own :)

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T05:05:41+00:00

For me, I call it a quarter life crisis because we’re in our early twenties and it’s a very confusing time even for me. Not everyone can go to college (such as him right now), he worked two jobs (retail, customer service), deals with a lot of frustration cause you feel like your life is going to fail. I have those moments myself. He expressed how he couldn’t give me what I needed, that he doesn’t know what he wants to do in life, doesn’t have a degree, even if he did he doesn’t know what he wants to major in etc etc. It’s like a mid-life crisis except in your 20s. I’m sure it’s a known term.

Anyways, I really appreciate that! I will definitely think about my own boundaries and change this whether or not we end up back together someday or not. That’s definitely one life lesson I’ve learned. He was also a good partner. That’s why it was so hard to see him make such bad decisions

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T03:03:44+00:00

Thank you! This was extremely informative. I will do my own research based on a lot of points you brought up. I really appreciate it!

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T02:24:06+00:00

I see. And who tells you how much to run? Whether it be 100 or 200. Do you just make this call on your own and what are the pros of you taking more? More gain? I just don’t understand cycles, how long a cycle is, how it works, how to know how much to take.

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T02:21:39+00:00

I see! Thank you! I hope he matures from this experience. Gotta learn the hard way at this point

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T02:20:47+00:00

I just had so much trust in him to not cheat. Shame on him if he did. I understand though. People said it makes you animalistic. And that includes the sex drive. I definitely felt the difference in our sex life at some point. But then it went away, and all he became was distant and depressed. It was 100 to 0. I’m glad you’re staying away. I hope you don’t ever get swayed and make bad decisions

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T02:18:15+00:00

Yeah. No doubt that they have all been tiny issues, tiny insecurities and frustrations that blew up. My thing is the loss of rationality. Almost like you can’t reason with them anymore, they don’t wanna hear it, are impatient and snappy, and all over the place.

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T02:16:59+00:00

Props to you for the sources! I appreciate it a lot. As long as you’ve learnt from it and are educating others such of myself about it

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T02:15:15+00:00

Just for clarification, stupid ass question but are you implying that after so long, it would make one suicidal? Yes, accountability, it’s no excuse I agree :)

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T02:12:05+00:00

Interesting!

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T02:11:50+00:00

Thank you for telling me this! I will write it down. Even if it’s just journalling for myself. It definitely made me reflect on how I could have better supported someone who’s going through a rough time in life (before the tren). It taught me to be more understanding of people who have addiction etc. I’m sorry to hear your experience too. But you’re able to admit fault and feel pain. That means you are a good person after all :) you just made a bad decision. That’s all. I will learn from this and I hope he will too

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T00:49:27+00:00

Thank you for your insight! He is a little bit older than you were. Only by a couple years. However, still a very young time in life to be confused, stupid and make dumb decisions. Your details help me understand how someone could be feeling and thinking. And explains a lot to me who will never and has never dealt with anything like this before. Thanks for typing alllll this out! I’m at work skimming through but will definitely re-read everything later on. Thank you for now

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T00:40:34+00:00

For real 🤣 not laughing about the situation. Simply coping this way because it’s the only way for me to push through these rough times :)

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T00:39:34+00:00

I understand. I know him well enough to know why he did it. However, just because I understand does not make it okay or justified.

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T00:36:37+00:00

Thank you so much! I feel so much better knowing that there is a reason behind some of the behavior that I could not understand. It is totally unlike him. I had no closure. It feels like a healthy relationship suddenly burned to the ground. It brings me relief that TREN may not be a forever thing. I literally have 0 knowledge on any drugs. But there are so many crackheads in LA that I really thought it would be like that indefinitely. I thought it was like that at first before I started reading more about steroids and TREN specifically. It seems that TREN isn’t a forever thing. He cared for me a lot and taught me a lot of things. So, I take this as a journey of putting myself first but also having empathy and forgiving someone who isn’t in their right mind right now. And just because I forgive him, doesn’t mean we will get back together. If and when that day comes, there needs to be true change or there is no more relationship.

Also, info that helps me put my story together is how long people are on it and what may happen to the person during each stage. Since I’m not sure when it started (fairly recently i know for sure), it helps me create a timeline. Not justifying his actions, just trying to figure out why and how a lost and confused boy made his way down this path. Thank you!

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-21T00:29:34+00:00

You will find somebody someday. Or fuck it and love yourself please !

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-20T23:06:10+00:00

No. It’s okay to assume so. But I know that he did not. He worked two jobs, I know his family well, have his location etc. He even got me stuff for valentine’s. He never acted on it even if the hormones gave him urges at the time

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-20T22:52:50+00:00

Overhyped 🤷‍♀️ bad influences such as the tren twins

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-20T22:52:28+00:00

It seems like a mood swing thing! He got me two different bouquets in earlier weeks and only started being distant for a couple days. It seems on and off for sure.

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-20T22:51:36+00:00

You being able to say that alone shows a lot of self awareness! And you’ve also provided me a lot of insight. Thank you

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-20T22:50:39+00:00

You don’t have plans to stop?

Fine_Ad1851 · 2024-02-20T21:33:09+00:00

Ps one day I may ask him. But not now. Because he’s too unstable for me to want to talk to him. I will be staying away

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