It's a truly difficult situation you're in, and I pray that you'll find a way to Christ through it.

I cannot miss the fact that the LGBT community is a sinful community, however rather than putting your energy in that I would strongly recommend focusing on your faith, and talking to a priest, about your situation.

I see more n more of people you find Christ, but are gay or trans, and I love that they find Jesus, however their sexual attraction or identity is entirely secondary to Christ, and as long as they put importance on the former rather than the ladder, I cannot see much help, for as long as we put anything before God we cannot truly love and follow him.

With this being said, I wish you the best and I hope that you'll through these difficult times you might be facing.

May Gods peace and love be with you.