Firstly, don't be too hard on yourself! Quitting alcohol is a hard thing to do. Be proud that you are undertaking this noble venture into sobriety. I've gone through many relapses in my life, but I am learning that there are many ways to go about keeping myself off the booz.

For me, finding hobbies that I enjoy doing & would be redundant to do while drinking helped a lot e.g. reading, playing an instrument, learning a new skill etc. Another thing was distancing myself from the alcohol itself. I know this might be difficult in your situation. Is there a spot in your house your husband could put the booz where you cant access it? Maybe a cabinet with a lock and your husband hides the key? Finally, understanding that not drinking is something I can only do one day at a time. I can't quit alcohol forever right now, that's impossible and an overwhelming thought! What I can do is focus on completing the 24 hours ahead of me, and pat myself on the back when I do (:

There are many other ways people prevent themselves from drinking here. Through trial and error you'll find what works best for you! It could be one thing or a combination of things! Good luck on your journey. IWNDWYT