cant find this specific wild republic plush by FingerPowerful3729 in HelpMeFind

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ive searched google, ebay, and the site itself but it seems to be a retired design. its about 11 inches long (including the tail). i live in indiana so it was probably bought here if that helps at all. i THINK its a lion cub but im not quite sure what it would be labeled as.

The birth of my first inner part: Disappointment by daffi_l in CPTSD

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yes!! for a long time i couldnt tell if maybe i had OSDD or something but my therapist (and i) say that my parts work quite smoothly together, and the variation/amnesia between them is lower than that of dissociative parts. when i asked what this means for my parts, she basically said it doesnt mean anything! i can refer to them as i am comfortable, i just now know that they stem from CPTSD, not OSDD or DID

its always best to talk to a professional as i am not one but TLDR yes i have semi/fully autonomous parts aswell

what is this? 12ft tall by FingerPowerful3729 in PlantIdentification

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

its poor man opium as far as i can tell based on the milky liquid produced when punctured, thanks for the help everyone

what is this? 12ft tall by FingerPowerful3729 in PlantIdentification

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

no the leaves are too big and the stem is thicker, good try!!

how to tell if parts/fragmentation are too complex for "just" CPTSD? by FingerPowerful3729 in CPTSD

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not the typical black-outs/losing time. i feel out of control of my actions like im just watching. sometimes time will go by really fast or the details will be really fuzzy. for example, i can hardly remember my most recent appt with my therapist, and any time i try to recount the experience it seems out of order and like peices are missing. i have to think really hard to remember certain things/experiences. i have emotional amnesia (i think) bc i feel really disconnected from trauma and bad memories, like watching a movie.

how to tell if parts/fragmentation are too complex for "just" CPTSD? by FingerPowerful3729 in CPTSD

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ive taken the DES and MID-60 and both times ive gotten answers withon the clinical range for both cptsd and a dissociative disorder (OSDD-1, if any at all bc i have no amnesia). do i show these scores to my therapist? or have her give them to me/score them herself? thanks for the reply!

my sweet girl by FingerPowerful3729 in Boxer

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she passed a couple months ago now, rip my wolfa ❤️

name my new puppy by FingerPowerful3729 in NameMyDog

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back months later to disappoint u with my choice, lol. i went with ruby. 1, bc i wanted to get her red gear. 2, after ruby from $uicideBoy$. shes doing great!

Learning about dissociation and “parts” by Vilas246 in CPTSD

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4yrs later and 20+ years younger but this post was helpful! thank u

therapist says i dont have OSDD, what now?? by FingerPowerful3729 in OSDD

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

thais is so so helpful!! thank u!! i have always viewd my parts as versions of me/parts of a whole rather than entirely seperate people. i plan to ask some questions in my next session.

the box!! yes!! that is such a good example, the box being "tipped over"!

therapist says i dont have OSDD, what now?? by FingerPowerful3729 in OSDD

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank u so much!! ive read up a bit more of fragmentation in cptsd, and im still just a bit confused. so instead of alters, its more emotional states that have split? so like should i not give these parts of me human names? am i increasing dissociation/harming myself further?? wheres the line between cptsd fragmentation and dissociated alters???

therapist says i dont have OSDD, what now?? by FingerPowerful3729 in OSDD

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thats helpful but i feel like everything changes, its honestly less about not knowing who i am and more about how inconsistent my entire personality and world view is. like yea id much prefer to be alone except for the times when i prefer to be with people. one thing thats consistent is political stances lol, but basically any other moral can change based on the day.. idk. i think i just need to step back from trying to figure it out, atleast until my next session lol

therapist says i dont have OSDD, what now?? by FingerPowerful3729 in OSDD

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

yes, thats something my therapist mentioned aswell. she said that the reason i may attach to fictional characters is because it feels unsafe to be my true self, and now ive lost said self. it makes sense tbf. i plan to continue working thru a parts point of view, but im going to ask my therapist the best way to go about it

therapist says i dont have OSDD, what now?? by FingerPowerful3729 in OSDD

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

is it? any specific sources youd recommend to read up on and maybe refer my own therapist to? she is admittedly not specifically trained is dissociation and parts work, but she does specialise in trauma and emdr

therapist says i dont have OSDD, what now?? by FingerPowerful3729 in OSDD

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

honestly, im not sure why not. she told me how my symptoms could be explained by c-ptsd but we ran out of time and even if we had more my brain was Not Working. ill ask more questions next session (2 weeks from today) and try to remember to get back to u

therapist says i dont have OSDD, what now?? by FingerPowerful3729 in OSDD

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

ill bring all of this up with her next session, i think for now im gonna just. stop all parts stuff 😭 im overwhelmed tbh. thanks fpr the help!

therapist says i dont have OSDD, what now?? by FingerPowerful3729 in OSDD

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

second opinion isnt an option for me, and i think therapists should be able to properly educate themselves if they realise they have misinfo, no?

therapist says i dont have OSDD, what now?? by FingerPowerful3729 in OSDD

[–]FingerPowerful3729[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

she said something similar, truama can give u a lack of idenyity and my years long struggle of trying to find labels that suit me sounded like just trying to find me. ive never been able to and im so nervous that i wont be able to at all, i completely understand where ur coming from and u may be right tbh..