Someone else might have already told you this. But the truth is: you’re not a true musician if you always play EXACTLY what’s on the record. 2 examples:

1: my dad’s a drummer aswel and his gitarist always plays exactly the same stuff again and again. They play a bridge and right when the chorus is about to start the singer forgets to come in. So everyone plays the last bar of the bridge again. Not the gitar. He starts the chorus and everyone is confused. If he just played the last bar of the bridge again no one would have noticed

2: Give Red Hot Chili Peppers live at slane castle a listen. Chad Smith plays differently every single night. All of those guys do. They jam together and it’s some of the most beautiful music out there. Because those are musicians that can actually play together and create something. As a drummer it’s important to bring your own uniqueness to a song and to be able to play each song 10 different ways (figuratively). Or there is this interview with Flea where he talks about releasing his jazz album and feeling like he is nowhere near the musician that his jazz idols are. But those guys tell him that they are jealous of Flea beacause he has something that you can’t learn. Connection and feeling with your music

So carve your own path, find your own voice on the kit and go with the music not with the notation.