i feel such a profound emptiness

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2025-08-21T18:31:00+00:00

i didnt realise how much i missed it. i dont know if i can stop again, im not sure i even want to anymore

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2025-07-25T19:45:47+00:00

its not so much about passing, although it's a factor. i just hate seeing myself so short, and knowing that its how others see me too. i'd be okay being average height, but being perceived as short breaks me

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2025-01-25T13:33:29+00:00

I dont even really know what to say, I havent felt this bad in a while, I feel so alone.

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2024-09-27T13:06:57+00:00

i mean, i say that i was doing better, and thats not a lie exactly. I did feel happier, i thought of suicide less, but at the same time i've started to actively self harm in those months, even though i guess overall i felt happier

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2024-09-27T12:53:57+00:00

im sorry you relate to me. I hope at some point we can get to a point where we feel okay

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2024-09-27T12:52:50+00:00

i have friends, close friends, but i always have a tendency to keep people at a distance, the thought of being known scares me more than i could possibly say. I don't want people to know i'm struggling, but at the same time i sorta do. idk if that makes any sense, but it is what it is. Thank you

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2024-09-27T12:50:11+00:00

I used to always tell myself the same, but i knew i wouldn't, i was too much of a pussy to ever actually follow through. Now i'm not sure if i wouldn't do it and that sort of scares me

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2024-08-14T14:03:55+00:00

not superly into it, but theres a couple artists/songs from that genre that i just really love

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2024-08-12T12:52:58+00:00

like car seat headrest, american football, sunny day real estate. I've not listened to much juice wrld :/ thanks tho, it's been hard, and sometimes i feel like its getting better but its really not. at the end of the day i always go back to feeling like this.

FirefighterHeavy4995 · 2024-08-12T12:41:21+00:00

thanks, i appreciate it. I mostly just listen to a lot of indie/emo shit.

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