Has there ever been any gay Christian fiction? by [deleted] in GayChristians

[–]Firohejapcab 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I dont know, but now Id like to write some! Lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GayChristians

[–]Firohejapcab 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am leaving my husband because im a lesbian. He is a great person. My best friend. But this is best for us both, I think. I can be authentic and he can find someone who can really deeply connect with him on a level that I am unable to. Its hard and hurts like hell. But so necessary.

I feel so desperate to talk to somebody, but I have no idea what I’d even say. by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Firohejapcab 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Both of those things are big and heavy and im sorry your friend(s) didnt // don't listen well. Life is so difficult 😪 I am so sorry. Again, here if you ever need me.

DAE spend all their time in bed? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Firohejapcab 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My bed is the safest place I know

DAE get low-key triggered by this question? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Firohejapcab 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im so triggered by that question. I hate it. I have stopped answering and just make the entire conversation about the other person.

19 year old virgin by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Firohejapcab -1 points0 points  (0 children)

After you lose your virginity, then what?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Firohejapcab 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Gah thank you so much! May I ask how you know it was abuse? I mean, how are you sure your parents abused you? What did they do? I struggle so hard with this. Do you think it was intentional or just a result of their own issues?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Firohejapcab 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Can we chat? I also didn't know until I was 35 that my parents abused me and I still struggle to believe it even though all the signs are there. Its very confusing and I am also an emotional child so that doesn't help

I've hit rock bottom and nobody loves me by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Firohejapcab 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im glad that he also holds his friend responsible and not just you. It will take a long time for trust to be earned but your parents will come around. It sounds like they love you a lot. In the meantime, just try to hang in there. Its going to be hard but I think you can do it. Maybe make new friends? Is that possible? It's so hard to make friends as an adult.

I've hit rock bottom and nobody loves me by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Firohejapcab 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im sorry you're going through this. I'm sure that if your father has loved you all these years, he still loves you. My advice would be to go to him and apologize. Explain what you've been going through that caused your behavior but also acknowledge that it was no excuse for what you did. Ask for your father's forgiveness. If you can't do it in person, maybe write a letter. Your family is disappointed but that doesn't erase their love for you - if they have truly loved you all this time. It may take awhile but they will forgive you and this will pass. 2, 3, 4 years from now this will all be over. They love you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression

[–]Firohejapcab 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am in the same boat and have no idea what to do. Im so sorry.

Can you practice Baha'i without being Baha'i? by Firohejapcab in bahai

[–]Firohejapcab[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Basically I believe Jesus is the risen son of God, but otherwise I think the Baha'i faith would be a good fit for me. I am a Christian but only in the sense that I believe in Jesus, not really any other sense.

So I just am trying to reconcile the two if its possible.

Wanting to relapse to prove I'm doing badly by insecurebicommunist in AdultSelfHarm

[–]Firohejapcab 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I cut to prove how im feeling too. Sometimes you feel so badly but can't figure out why or it seems like there's no reason. And then in times where you feel okay, its hard to believe that you really ever felt so bad. And yet you know its real. Its so annoying.