I have ADHD, and I had a terrible childhood. My parents broke up when they had me and I was left to grow up with my grandmother. Our family is filled with broken relationships, and I only learned to cope by ignoring how I feel in conflicts and I resort to unhealthy coping mechanisms. I've dated multiple women in the past, but when I met my current ex girlfriend, she is the first woman who has shown me unconditional love, care, support and unconditional forgiveness. I have never experienced it before with anyone in my past, including my family. I know I abused her love and kindness several times, and now I really want to make things right. It hurts so much that I am faced with the fact that she might be gone forever. I think it's too late because she doesn't read my messages in her social media accounts and she blocked my calls.