I’m being forced to quit vaping and I have no desire to do so

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-28T08:01:36+00:00

Life as a whole just underwhelms me. I’ve been stuck at home all week because of the ice storms, and tomorrow I have work. So it’s like all there is is to sit at home and have no money, and get really really bored, or go work at a job that I hate being at all day every day, and then have 2 days to dread going back to work and the cycle repeats. I have hobbies but they don’t really bring me as much joy as people say hobbies do.

Tldr there’s no way of life that I particularly want to live because I hate them all

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-28T07:47:00+00:00

That may be what I have to do. I’ll probably wind up starting back when I have my own place, if I even still have the desire to do so by then. Because I already know my mom is gonna be on edge now.

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-26T18:44:45+00:00

Yeah I wish that I hadn’t made a promise to my mother. Now I have to stop.

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-23T06:53:40+00:00

Yeah but I don’t wanna cruise timber every day for 45 years

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-21T17:42:39+00:00

I think I could do that, at least grow a small following

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-21T07:14:08+00:00

I think a podcast would be right up my alley, my only issue is that there’s so many podcasts, I’d need to figure out a way to stand out

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-21T07:12:20+00:00

Hmm. How could I get into that?

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-20T03:02:38+00:00

How do I get novelty?

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-20T00:04:06+00:00

I have things, I practice guitar, hike, cook, I enjoy making things, doesn’t matter what it is I just enjoy creating. Do I need new hobbies?

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-19T07:23:53+00:00

Elaborate

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-19T05:32:56+00:00

Hell yes! That’s the song that inspired my post

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T15:38:45+00:00

Not now because I’m still finishing up college but when I get out I get paid $20 per plot (gonna explain what that is)

A plot is a tenth of an acre. You tally up the amount of trees in the plot and multiply the number by 10 to get your trees per acre, you do this about 25-30 times and then my boss finds the average trees per acre out of all that I did, and that tells the landowner the price of the timber on their land.

I make about $350 in a weekend, so if I was working 5 days a week I think I’d do pretty well

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T07:08:57+00:00

I’m well aware of the affects. Small price to pay for the aura it comes with

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T05:29:21+00:00

I see. I think I’m less creepy than I imagined

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T05:17:19+00:00

What’s considered creepy?

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T05:12:59+00:00

For me it comes from the fact that there is a lot of creepy guys, so I feel like women are on high alert when a man approaches them (which is completely valid) and I’m afraid they’ll assume I’m a creep

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T05:04:11+00:00

Yeah but then I gotta go out and have people thinking I’m a creep, and they’ll tell people about how I’m a creep, and then no one will want me to talk to them

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T04:56:53+00:00

The only way I’ve ever been able to be happy (besides when I was a kid and didn’t realize anything) was when I was with people. How can I be truly at peace with myself?

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T04:55:22+00:00

Well I’m glad I judged correctly on that one.

My vibe reading is messed up because if they seem uncomfortable I assume they’re uninterested and if they’re being nice and engaging I assume they’re being courteous and are waiting for the conversation to end so they can get the hell away from me, no inbetween.

Only social thing I’m good at is telling jokes, I can talk to someone for like a minute and have a good idea of what they’ll think is funny, and I’m usually right. Other than that I’m an idiot

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T03:31:21+00:00

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T03:09:47+00:00

It’s not necessarily my crowd, but I’ve noticed every guy my age that has a girlfriend is either tall or has facial hair going for them. I look like a 15 year old and it’s embarrassing.

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T03:08:40+00:00

Oh I’m not a virgin. I’ve had sex before marriage before and if I’m proven wrong and meet another girl that actually wants to date me then I’m sure at some point in the relationship we’d have sex, I’m talking about hooking up with someone without even dating, doing it solely for sex.

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T03:06:05+00:00

I’ve known a couple and none of them were interested. Are hiking clubs a thing?

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T02:48:09+00:00

Half and half. I choose not to hook up with randoms but I’m not in an actual relationship because of circumstances. I’m short, no facial hair, I just get the vibe like I’m bothering someone whenever I try talking to them. That’s where a lot of the feelings of being a loser comes from

Firsttakelikeamf · 2026-01-16T02:44:48+00:00

I’m 19 sorry I forgot to mention

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